It's been too long since I've written on this, thats for sure.
Updates:
I'm reading Julie & Julia by Julie Powell and I'm about halfway. I love the book except I get stuck on some of the French words that I can't much pronounce.
I'm working on trying to accept high heels into my life. I'm 5'1 and I need them. This is no longer a want, it is a need. They hurt but damn they look good!
I gave up on the diet.. months ago! I'd rather be happy and healthy
Still working at the Pentagon - still not loving DC
I've decided to move to Lynchburg. My lease on the townhouse isn't up until June of 2010, so this isn't stone sketched but it's the plan. Dave and I decided together that this is our best option for the next move in our relationship.
Also, I'm saddened deeply because my parents are moving back to West Virginia. I've never been further than a 20 minute drive away from my parents and although, I'm almost 30, I think I'm heartbroken.
Charlie has a birthday coming up. My baby dog will be 2 years old on October 26th.
I feel like a proud parent, if you can feel that way with a dog.
So, here is to October 1st - new month, new journeys, new outlook to life
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
It's been forever, I know
I rarely have time to write on the blog anymore.. I went on a vacation, got sick and now I'm slammed at work.
I'm doing good. I was sick last week with a head cold which sucked!
I finally went on a vacation with Dave. We spent 7 days together. (We are long distance, so we aren't used to seeing a lot of each other). Really, I thought we did great together. A little bit of arguing towards the end of the week, but I was getting sick so I was grumpy. We went to Myrtle Beach and it was fun. The highlight of the trip was when the Hard Rock Cafe caught on fire and evacuated people while we were standing in line to be seated. Literally.. a fire. Smoke was pouring from the inside and people were running out.
The cause was a gigantic thunderstorm with lighting striking like a hurricane. It was cool.. but it wasn't for us, so we left and found a hole in the wall Mexican place that had cheap margaritas (16 oz ) and really good food. It was probably the best night I had with Dave.. it was very romantic casual.
So, Saturday morning I woke up with a sore throat.. suffered through it and played some mini golf and laid in the sun.. kind of a relaxing last day at the beach. Saturday night I slept the worst I've ever slept. Even Dave was annoyed that I tossed and turned so much. Sunday I woke up incredibly fluish and I was sick for a week after that. SUCKS!
I'm better now.
I've been incredibly stressed at work. People leaving (yay) and new people coming in.
I'm still on my anxiety meds and I'm feeling great. I've even lost some weight.. woo hoo
I started weight watchers online again. This time I'm feeling pretty good about it. I'm not really obsessed about it like I was before. I didn't run to the store and only buy salad. I'm being realistic this time.. and so far so good. I've lost 4 lbs. I'm pretty excited. My goal is to get under 140 by Aug 30 (1 month)
We'll see.. my motivation is good.. so I'm hoping for a good outcome.
Lets see.. Charlie is good. Can you believe he is almost 2. He's starting to calm down.. he actually lets me pet him at night! He's so adorable. He likes to eat my hair while I'm sitting on the couch.. I'm not sure exactly what that is about, but I'm thinking its his nurturing. He wants to take care of mama after a long hard day at work. (he also licks my feet).. He's like the husband I never had. LOL!!!
Really though.. things are just chuggin along :)
I'm doing good. I was sick last week with a head cold which sucked!
I finally went on a vacation with Dave. We spent 7 days together. (We are long distance, so we aren't used to seeing a lot of each other). Really, I thought we did great together. A little bit of arguing towards the end of the week, but I was getting sick so I was grumpy. We went to Myrtle Beach and it was fun. The highlight of the trip was when the Hard Rock Cafe caught on fire and evacuated people while we were standing in line to be seated. Literally.. a fire. Smoke was pouring from the inside and people were running out.
The cause was a gigantic thunderstorm with lighting striking like a hurricane. It was cool.. but it wasn't for us, so we left and found a hole in the wall Mexican place that had cheap margaritas (16 oz ) and really good food. It was probably the best night I had with Dave.. it was very romantic casual.
So, Saturday morning I woke up with a sore throat.. suffered through it and played some mini golf and laid in the sun.. kind of a relaxing last day at the beach. Saturday night I slept the worst I've ever slept. Even Dave was annoyed that I tossed and turned so much. Sunday I woke up incredibly fluish and I was sick for a week after that. SUCKS!
I'm better now.
I've been incredibly stressed at work. People leaving (yay) and new people coming in.
I'm still on my anxiety meds and I'm feeling great. I've even lost some weight.. woo hoo
I started weight watchers online again. This time I'm feeling pretty good about it. I'm not really obsessed about it like I was before. I didn't run to the store and only buy salad. I'm being realistic this time.. and so far so good. I've lost 4 lbs. I'm pretty excited. My goal is to get under 140 by Aug 30 (1 month)
We'll see.. my motivation is good.. so I'm hoping for a good outcome.
Lets see.. Charlie is good. Can you believe he is almost 2. He's starting to calm down.. he actually lets me pet him at night! He's so adorable. He likes to eat my hair while I'm sitting on the couch.. I'm not sure exactly what that is about, but I'm thinking its his nurturing. He wants to take care of mama after a long hard day at work. (he also licks my feet).. He's like the husband I never had. LOL!!!
Really though.. things are just chuggin along :)
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Monday, July 6, 2009
Virginia Beach.. wow, where to begin
Went to Virginia Beach for the weekend with my sister (who is 23)
I'm just going to run through the highlights of my weekend!
Arrived Friday around 11:30.
Tent was up by 11:50 (shocking, not sure how we did it that quick).
We were out on the beach by 12:30 and laid out until about 3.
Got back and went swimming. Friday was the most beautiful day I've ever seen at the beach. We were actually praying for clouds.. our prayers were never answered.
4:30 we decide to start drinking and grill some burgers.
Note: We bought the coolest grill ever! It is literally a frying pan with legs. It was 6 bucks at walmart and it even included its own little bag of charcoal. So we set it up, grabbed some ice and got to drinking.
6:00 rolls around and somehow we were both tipsy and decide it is time to take a shower. Holy shit, there is only 1 shower. My sister and I both go in and I jump in the shower first. (the floor is nasty and the line is forever long.. it was definitely not cool) but we were drunk so whatever. Well, halfway through the shower, my (drunk sister) decides she is tired of waiting and just hops right on in. I look at her (at her face I was afraid to look down) and say.. WTF are you doing? She said.. look, just turn around and shower.. I'm not waiting.. the line is long so just shut up. So, yeah.. we ended up showering together. The thought going through my mind was this though........... "the entire campsite thinks we are lesbians" LOL. It was interesting and totally weird and I will never do that again. Not with my baby sister.. too weird.
So.. 7:00 we are finally out of the weirdest shower I've ever taken and we are back at the site drinking. We find this really awesome watermelon drink in the cooler (by the way.. the cooler was already stocked with beer from my sister having a party last weekend while I was out of town).. so we find this watermelon drink... it's 20% alcohol content and it was YUMMY! However, it was BAD!
9:30 it is time to go out.. I'm already very drunk and should probably not go to Virginia Beach.. but hell with it.
9:40.. I see the "moon bounce" that our camp has set up and it totally looks like the funnest thing.. I want to jump on it.. so I go running to jump on it and it is kind of deflated.. as I'm walking slowly across this gigantic bouncy thing.. I all of the sudden get this huge burst of bounce and I turn around thinking it is my sister.. but low and behold.. it is about 10 mexican kids rushing me! I'm flying everywhere, I can't get off the bouncing thing and my sister is over on the ground laughing so hard she is crying.
10:00 - that was the longest 20 minutes of my life. I'm not doing that again!
10:30 - we finally make it downtown.. not sure "exactly" what is going on.. but we keep drinking. My sister talked to a cute little guy who kept saying he was running a marathon and that he couldn't drink (his tab was 70 bucks.. I do remember that.. so someone was drinking)!
11:30 - we sneak out because we are tired of listening to dude talk about the marathon. We tell him we are going to the bathroom and we run (literally, we were running out of the bar). We started walking down the boardwalk and realize neither of us can see straight.. so we just started taking pictures. I have so many pictures of us and fake fish .. ? not sure where they came from. There is even 1 picture of my sister and I riding fake turtles. Hmm.. damn Watermelon shit!
12:30 - Man we are hungry.. OMG there is a Roma's open... we have GOT to get some food. We go in.. I can't see the menu but my sister knows what she wants.. we get a gigantic stromboli and bacon cheese fries. As we are waiting on our food.. we get hit on by 2 of the nastiest scariest creepers ever! The one hitting on me told me he liked my shirt.. he definitely wasn't looking at my shirt. He looked like a old fat cracked out carrot top. He is the kind of guy who would give me nightmares. I refused to tell him where we were staying.. so he pitched a fit and he and his friend left. Luckily! Then.. the "owner" or so he proposed.. starting hitting on us also. (I guess we were hot.. dont know).. he kept telling us how he owned all these restaurants and he was only 28 blah blah blah. We got our food and left and definitely did not pay the bill. YES.. we STOLE the food.. on purpose too. We ran screaming.. We are stealing the food.. LOL!!! I say he deserved it for paying more attention to us than our food! WE get home and eat and pass out.
Day 2: Happy 4th
I wake up around 7:30 to some loud ass shit going on in the camp site. Laughing and hammering and cooking.. and I was SOOO hungover. I head on to the bathroom because I'm about to shit my guts out.. (you know, the beer) and OMG there are like 50 people in the bathroom.. OMG what am I going to do.. people are in there brushing teeth, washing faces etc.
I had to go anyways. Let me just say.. I'm not one to fart in public. NEVER!!! I sat down and seriously.. I sounded like an old lady in there. (you know what I'm talking aobut).. I'm not going to get detailed.. but lets just say.. I felt REALLY bad for the people brushing teeth. (I brushed my teeth at my campsite with a bottle of water after that).. it was BAD and so humiliating. I had to do the walk of shame out of the bathroom! :(
Anyhow.. we decided to skip the beach and just hang out at the pool all day. Bad idea.. I guess water washes off sunblock. I got burnt up!
Well, while we were there.. we got hit on (which always makes you feel good) but the guys were 20. They invited us back to the campsite to drink some beer with them, but we decided it was not a good idea.
Shower number 2 - this time we were not drunk so we definitely did not shower together. HOwever, the line was long.. so we decided to shower in the men's bathroom. We paid the price for breaking the rules - the shower was ice cold and the toilet was so nasty I wanted to vomit. I literally took a 30 minute shower! There wasn't any warm water AT ALL! So.. in and out we go.. but I was so burnt that the cold actually felt good.
Time to grill! We get the coals a burning and we decide we want to roast marshmellows.. so my sister goes to the woods to get some sticks. I turn around and she is sprinting as fast as she can with horror on her face. She saw a snake and freaked out.. I guess when she bent down to pick up the stick.. the snake was right there and it started slithering away and she saw it and flipped out. My sister is not scared of anything .. (but snakes obviously).. I laughed until I almost peed.
We decided it was time to start drinking again. The beer did not go down as well this time because I was still hungover. I pushed on though!!! my sister and I drank and sang and took about 50 pictures of each other. LOL. Well, finally its dark.. I gotta pee so I go behind the tent. I'm in a dress.. so I figured it would be easy.
Note: When squatting and peeing in the woods, do not pull the underwear to the side... you must take them completely down - I ended up peeing all over myself .. I sat them outside of the tent because no way was I going to put them on the inside.. YUK.. so I changed and we laughed.. and somehow ended up drunk AGAIN! This time we left early and went downtown though.. We got on the trolly and low and behold.. we see those 20 year olds that hit on us earlier sucking face with these girls. LOL! Nice..
So we go and watch the fireworks. VA beach was the most crowded I've ever seen it.. I mean, seriously 500,000 people or so just crammed on the beach for 15 minutes worth of fireworks. We go .. we get some drinks and we watch the fireworks. We take pictures with this balloon making uncle sam.. he was not happy. (I'll post pictures soon).. but it was funny. We talked to some locals and chilled out but we went home around 12:30. Decided to cook out.. lost some hot dogs around the way and passed out. Woke up the next day and realized my underwear were still outside of the tent and the hot dogs I had lost were inside of the miniature tent. SO hungover I thought I could die!
Sat in traffic for 6 hours. It was not cool.. but the trip was so worth it!!!
I'm just going to run through the highlights of my weekend!
Arrived Friday around 11:30.
Tent was up by 11:50 (shocking, not sure how we did it that quick).
We were out on the beach by 12:30 and laid out until about 3.
Got back and went swimming. Friday was the most beautiful day I've ever seen at the beach. We were actually praying for clouds.. our prayers were never answered.
4:30 we decide to start drinking and grill some burgers.
Note: We bought the coolest grill ever! It is literally a frying pan with legs. It was 6 bucks at walmart and it even included its own little bag of charcoal. So we set it up, grabbed some ice and got to drinking.
6:00 rolls around and somehow we were both tipsy and decide it is time to take a shower. Holy shit, there is only 1 shower. My sister and I both go in and I jump in the shower first. (the floor is nasty and the line is forever long.. it was definitely not cool) but we were drunk so whatever. Well, halfway through the shower, my (drunk sister) decides she is tired of waiting and just hops right on in. I look at her (at her face I was afraid to look down) and say.. WTF are you doing? She said.. look, just turn around and shower.. I'm not waiting.. the line is long so just shut up. So, yeah.. we ended up showering together. The thought going through my mind was this though........... "the entire campsite thinks we are lesbians" LOL. It was interesting and totally weird and I will never do that again. Not with my baby sister.. too weird.
So.. 7:00 we are finally out of the weirdest shower I've ever taken and we are back at the site drinking. We find this really awesome watermelon drink in the cooler (by the way.. the cooler was already stocked with beer from my sister having a party last weekend while I was out of town).. so we find this watermelon drink... it's 20% alcohol content and it was YUMMY! However, it was BAD!
9:30 it is time to go out.. I'm already very drunk and should probably not go to Virginia Beach.. but hell with it.
9:40.. I see the "moon bounce" that our camp has set up and it totally looks like the funnest thing.. I want to jump on it.. so I go running to jump on it and it is kind of deflated.. as I'm walking slowly across this gigantic bouncy thing.. I all of the sudden get this huge burst of bounce and I turn around thinking it is my sister.. but low and behold.. it is about 10 mexican kids rushing me! I'm flying everywhere, I can't get off the bouncing thing and my sister is over on the ground laughing so hard she is crying.
10:00 - that was the longest 20 minutes of my life. I'm not doing that again!
10:30 - we finally make it downtown.. not sure "exactly" what is going on.. but we keep drinking. My sister talked to a cute little guy who kept saying he was running a marathon and that he couldn't drink (his tab was 70 bucks.. I do remember that.. so someone was drinking)!
11:30 - we sneak out because we are tired of listening to dude talk about the marathon. We tell him we are going to the bathroom and we run (literally, we were running out of the bar). We started walking down the boardwalk and realize neither of us can see straight.. so we just started taking pictures. I have so many pictures of us and fake fish .. ? not sure where they came from. There is even 1 picture of my sister and I riding fake turtles. Hmm.. damn Watermelon shit!
12:30 - Man we are hungry.. OMG there is a Roma's open... we have GOT to get some food. We go in.. I can't see the menu but my sister knows what she wants.. we get a gigantic stromboli and bacon cheese fries. As we are waiting on our food.. we get hit on by 2 of the nastiest scariest creepers ever! The one hitting on me told me he liked my shirt.. he definitely wasn't looking at my shirt. He looked like a old fat cracked out carrot top. He is the kind of guy who would give me nightmares. I refused to tell him where we were staying.. so he pitched a fit and he and his friend left. Luckily! Then.. the "owner" or so he proposed.. starting hitting on us also. (I guess we were hot.. dont know).. he kept telling us how he owned all these restaurants and he was only 28 blah blah blah. We got our food and left and definitely did not pay the bill. YES.. we STOLE the food.. on purpose too. We ran screaming.. We are stealing the food.. LOL!!! I say he deserved it for paying more attention to us than our food! WE get home and eat and pass out.
Day 2: Happy 4th
I wake up around 7:30 to some loud ass shit going on in the camp site. Laughing and hammering and cooking.. and I was SOOO hungover. I head on to the bathroom because I'm about to shit my guts out.. (you know, the beer) and OMG there are like 50 people in the bathroom.. OMG what am I going to do.. people are in there brushing teeth, washing faces etc.
I had to go anyways. Let me just say.. I'm not one to fart in public. NEVER!!! I sat down and seriously.. I sounded like an old lady in there. (you know what I'm talking aobut).. I'm not going to get detailed.. but lets just say.. I felt REALLY bad for the people brushing teeth. (I brushed my teeth at my campsite with a bottle of water after that).. it was BAD and so humiliating. I had to do the walk of shame out of the bathroom! :(
Anyhow.. we decided to skip the beach and just hang out at the pool all day. Bad idea.. I guess water washes off sunblock. I got burnt up!
Well, while we were there.. we got hit on (which always makes you feel good) but the guys were 20. They invited us back to the campsite to drink some beer with them, but we decided it was not a good idea.
Shower number 2 - this time we were not drunk so we definitely did not shower together. HOwever, the line was long.. so we decided to shower in the men's bathroom. We paid the price for breaking the rules - the shower was ice cold and the toilet was so nasty I wanted to vomit. I literally took a 30 minute shower! There wasn't any warm water AT ALL! So.. in and out we go.. but I was so burnt that the cold actually felt good.
Time to grill! We get the coals a burning and we decide we want to roast marshmellows.. so my sister goes to the woods to get some sticks. I turn around and she is sprinting as fast as she can with horror on her face. She saw a snake and freaked out.. I guess when she bent down to pick up the stick.. the snake was right there and it started slithering away and she saw it and flipped out. My sister is not scared of anything .. (but snakes obviously).. I laughed until I almost peed.
We decided it was time to start drinking again. The beer did not go down as well this time because I was still hungover. I pushed on though!!! my sister and I drank and sang and took about 50 pictures of each other. LOL. Well, finally its dark.. I gotta pee so I go behind the tent. I'm in a dress.. so I figured it would be easy.
Note: When squatting and peeing in the woods, do not pull the underwear to the side... you must take them completely down - I ended up peeing all over myself .. I sat them outside of the tent because no way was I going to put them on the inside.. YUK.. so I changed and we laughed.. and somehow ended up drunk AGAIN! This time we left early and went downtown though.. We got on the trolly and low and behold.. we see those 20 year olds that hit on us earlier sucking face with these girls. LOL! Nice..
So we go and watch the fireworks. VA beach was the most crowded I've ever seen it.. I mean, seriously 500,000 people or so just crammed on the beach for 15 minutes worth of fireworks. We go .. we get some drinks and we watch the fireworks. We take pictures with this balloon making uncle sam.. he was not happy. (I'll post pictures soon).. but it was funny. We talked to some locals and chilled out but we went home around 12:30. Decided to cook out.. lost some hot dogs around the way and passed out. Woke up the next day and realized my underwear were still outside of the tent and the hot dogs I had lost were inside of the miniature tent. SO hungover I thought I could die!
Sat in traffic for 6 hours. It was not cool.. but the trip was so worth it!!!
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Monday, June 22, 2009
Feeling Good
I've been on my meds now for 2 weeks and I have to say.. I feel really great.
I noticed that not only did my mood improve, but I've noticed a lot of physical problems that have disappeared.
I'm sleeping much better at night. I've gotten rid of my headaches and backaches and neck pains. I have more energy (except for in the mornings.. I'll never have energy in the mornings)
Really though, I was told I wouldn't really even notice the different. Maybe it's all in my head? LOL (literally)!!!
I noticed that not only did my mood improve, but I've noticed a lot of physical problems that have disappeared.
I'm sleeping much better at night. I've gotten rid of my headaches and backaches and neck pains. I have more energy (except for in the mornings.. I'll never have energy in the mornings)
Really though, I was told I wouldn't really even notice the different. Maybe it's all in my head? LOL (literally)!!!
Friday, June 12, 2009
Drs appointment
I went to the Dr. on Tuesday for my anxiety / stress.
I got my blood taken - which I HATE to do. They tested my thyroid and that came back normal.
The dr put me on Celexa which is an antidepressent. I'm also sick so he put me on Allegra.
I didn't think that the Celexa was supposed to work right away because I was told it could take 2 - 3 weeks and then I still probably wouldn't feel a difference.
I already feel a difference.
I maybe don't so much mentally, but I must have had a lot of physical symptoms associated with stress.
I dont have headaches or pain behind my eyes, my hands aren't sweaty, I sleep at night and I feel incredibly calm and relaxed. Kind of like an "i dont give a shit" attitude.
Is it normal for meds to work that fast?
I got my blood taken - which I HATE to do. They tested my thyroid and that came back normal.
The dr put me on Celexa which is an antidepressent. I'm also sick so he put me on Allegra.
I didn't think that the Celexa was supposed to work right away because I was told it could take 2 - 3 weeks and then I still probably wouldn't feel a difference.
I already feel a difference.
I maybe don't so much mentally, but I must have had a lot of physical symptoms associated with stress.
I dont have headaches or pain behind my eyes, my hands aren't sweaty, I sleep at night and I feel incredibly calm and relaxed. Kind of like an "i dont give a shit" attitude.
Is it normal for meds to work that fast?
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