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so·cial·ist [ sṓshəlist ] or So·cial·ist [ sṓshəlist ]


noun (plural so·cial·ists) (plural So·cial·ists)

Definition:

believer in socialism: somebody who believes in or supports socialism or a socialist party




adjective

Definition:

1. advocating socialism: relating to, based on, or advocating socialism


2. relating to socialists: relating to socialists or a socialist party

Taurus

Taurus - February 26, 2009

You may feel as if someone is poking you in the side today, dear Taurus, urging you to get up and get moving. Don't be surprised if someone seems to be picking on you for no reason. Other people's lack of sympathy and sensitivity might be acute on a day like this. Try not to take it personally. Your hard outer shell may be put to the test in terms of its ability to protect your soft, vulnerable insides.

Blah

Mindless I wish I were
days are long and crazy
thoughts are in and out
and I'm constantly thinking.

Drifting away of my past
moving to a present
that's unknown to me.

I pout and cry and yet it does nothing
it seems I'm in a glass box
looking out and everyone around me
just walks around me.

I'm walking down a path
reminds me of my childhood
but the weeds have come and taken over.

I'm jut not me anymore
I don't know where I went
I don't know where I'll be.

Rock Bottom

I hit it this weekend. I've been battling a lot of stress and anxiety and it finally got the best of me.

I've decided to stop taking my birth control. (let's just hope I don't end up pregnant) but, I'm eliminating extra hormones incase they are to blame.

I quit my diet. I'm not going to eat everything in sight but Im not going to worry about my weight right now. I'm still going to exercise, but to feel better. I need to focus on my health and not my weight.

I ordered some self help books online. Will they work, who knows. One of the books is about dealing with stress and anxiety and the other is about battling my moods.

Hopefully, in the next month or two, I will start feeling better.

I am driving myself crazy

My sister needs a job!

My sister is looking for a part time, evening shift position. It doesn't have to pay a lot of money. She's in class at Mary Washington during the day and needs some spending money.

Any ideas?

We tried to get her a job at Geico, and they were going to hire her. However, she would have to do 3 months of daytime training. That is not possible for her, due to her college classes.

Someone help, please! She lives with me and I really do not want to pay her bills!!

Which path to take?

I'm at the Crossroads

Do I...

Rent again for another year, so that I can support the possibility that Dave might propose to me in a year and I might move to Lynchburg.

Or do I...

Focus on my job and myself and buy a house in May, which would be really difficult for me if Dave were to propose to me.


It's like choosing love or money. I've been down the road that offered love and it turned out to be a dead end. BUT, I can't compare my current relationship to my past relationship.

I'm stuck and starting to worry myself into a mess

I need a new book

I'm not a big reader. I've never been one to get lost in a book or spend hours reading. However, I'm now a metro passenger and I need something to occupy my time.

I really liked the book Cindy let me borrow, "Bet Me" by Jennifer Cruise. I LOVED that book. I've tried the other Jennifer Cruise books though and I don't like them.

Any ideas?

Octuplets for Jolie .. I mean....

So what is up with the Octuplet lady? First, I'd like to say.. damn, she looks great for just having 8 babies. Next, I'd like to mention that it really looks as if she's had some surgery on her lips. Now, before I put my foot in my mouth, are those lips real? Were those lips part of her raid disaster in 1999? Or, did she get some fat put in them? If it is the latter of the 3, where in the hell is this lady coming up with all of this money??
I did a little bit of research on In Vitro and the average cost is around 13,000 dollars just for the procedure. This doesn't include lab tests, drugs and checkups etc. If this lady was a single (unemployed) mother, how in the WORLD did she afford in vitro twice? I know she said that she saved money from her past job because she wanted to have kids, but after her first in vitro.. shouldn't she be out of money?
Why is her mother allowing her to do this? She does live with her mom, right? I have 1 dog and my mom has already told me (even though I don't live with her) that I'm not allowed to get anymore dogs. My Charlie is a handful.. and he is just a dog!! Why wouldn't her mother put her foot down and say, "look here, your not making this mistake again" Who in the hell wants 13 brothers and sisters? How does she expect to give all of these children everything they need? What is she going to do when "holding them" and loving them isn't enough? Has she gotten health insurance for all of these babies? I really think she knows that Oprah, Tyra, Maury, and the government will help her with the costs and feedings of these babies.

I don't know.. I just think she is stupid and she shouldn't have anymore kids.

Oh, and I really want to see her stomach. What does an 8 baby stomach look like? I've google imaged and I can't find one picture.

I'm back, I think...

I think I had the flu. I don't know, but I'm finally feeling better.

I'm back at work and trying to deal with reality.

I'm annoyed

I'm annoyed at a lot of things right now. I think most of it is due to being sick, but still.
I'm going to just list things I wish I could change...

My stupid commute
My hours at work
Hours of operation at Emergency Clinics (why do they close at 7)
My health insurance for only covering 1 Emergency Clinic - in Garrisonville that closes at 7!
The 2 other admins that work with me, because no one will cover my shift
My boss for not allowing someone from another office cover my shift
My boss for just asking me to staple papers together, I believe I'm smarter than that
I brought soup for lunch today and don't want to eat it
Mcdonalds being a skip and a jump away from my office downstairs
My boyfriend being so far away, he is supposed to be comforting me when I'm sick
The fact I can't hang out with my friends because of my stupid hours at work.
I'm too old to ask my mom to take care of me (but I SO want her to)
My period, which seems to never want to go away (even though I take yaz for a shorter one)
Chicken salad sandwiches for having mayonnaise
Mayonnaise for having so much fat but being so yummy
I hate that I want a chicken salad sandwich
I hate the old lady I work with - she stands over me
I hate that the old lady is 70 and I feel guilty for hating her
BEING SICK
The metro because I have to stand 25 minutes on my ride home, and I'm not tall enough to hold the stupid bar that helps you maintain stability
Being too short to hold the stupid bar that helps you maintain stability
People who get in your food to see what you are eating. (although, I think I may be bad about it myself)
Bosses who see that you are eating, yet still come bother you with tasks
Shredded lettuce on sandwiches - none of the lettuce stays on it is dumb
People who don't understand personal space
People who ask you for a chip (when your not best friends) and put their hand in your bag, knowing you are sick

Anyhow, for now I think that does it. I'm sure I'll think of more stuff.

Sick = Angry

Charlie