Copied from all the ladies

1. To whom did you last give the finger? probably as a joke someone at work

2. If you had 1,000 dollars what would you buy? movies and clothes probably

3.What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself? soda the other day

4. Are you different now than you were 6 months ago? Absolutely

5. Have you been anywhere exciting in the last three days? Hartwood.. does that count?

6. What was the last photograph you took? hahaha.. I took a picture with my phone of the "rap snacks" I bought Sarah for Christmas.. so hilarious

7. Where were you last night around 9:30? Walmart

8. What do you think of guys that wear eyeliner? GAY

9. How many hours did you last sleep? 6.5 or so

10. Who was the last person to whom you spoke on the phone? my sister :)

11. 50 Cent shows up at your door, what do you do? Scream for Sarah ... she loves him

12. How was the last egg you ate prepared? it was one of those fake scrambled eggs .. it was on a biscuit

13. Where did you last wear sunglasses? bout 2 weeks ago.. whenever it was last sunny

14. Ever worn your underwear backwards? no.. my ass is way too big.. there would be a huge difference lol

15. Who was the last person to smoke a cigarette in your presence? Cindy

16. Does it bother you when people put && before every sentence and after? I don't know.. no one ever does it

17. What animal did you last pet or hold? Bigsley Boo.. (my sisters dog)

18. What was the last law you broke? the speed limit this morning

19. What are you wearing? boots jeans white old navy fleece

20. What did you think of your last kiss? nice :)

21. What was the last newspaper you read or skimmed? msn

22. What was the last word written on your hand? it was a password bout 3 weeks ago

23. What was the last hair product you used? hair dye conditioner

24. What was the last text message you received? from my sister - "sorry, I just got thru costms"

26. Who was the last person to make you really laugh? Sarah and I talking about "the baby"

27. To what song did you last sing along? Everything she does is Magic .. magic.. magic.. magic magic magic.. hahaha.. by the police

28. What was the last musical instrument played in your presence? probably a guitar or something?

29. What was the last superstitious thing you did? Knock on wood

Will and Dave

Ok.. so update on the dating site. I've met 2 guys that I'm really clicking with. (Gosh this sounds so stupid).. but, anyhow.

Dave and Will.

They both are funny and outgoing and have lots of friends that they go and hang out with. (I always look to see if the guys pics have him and his friends or just him).. I think this is a total way to see if your a loner.. and I'm not cool with the loners, they tend to be clingy..

Ok.. Will first - He lives in Alexandria and is 28 years old. Non-smoker - Christian.. wants kids but doesn't have any of his own already (not unless he lied). He and I talk at least once a day. He likes all kinds of music and is very flexible on hanging out. He has an admin job at a physical therapy office... so, he works.. yay! I should probably ask him if he drives too.. ha


As for Dave - hes my favorite so far (but don't tell Will) - Dave lives in Arlington.. hes only 24.. but thats ok. He is hilarious.. we tell each other stories of crazy stuff that has happened to us.. and we've totally figured out a way to cuss on the site and not get caught.. maturity.. its great. He hasn't mentioned "meeting" me yet.. we just casually get to know each other.. its great. Plus, his pictures.... he seems nice looking :) always a plus.. I'm not even so concerned with that though... a great personality goes so much further than looks.


So.. thats an update... I could "possibly" be meeting up with Will Saturday night.. depending on my friends and his friends.. we want to make it a big friends thing and just all hang out.

:)

First Night on The Site

Ok.. so yesterday I signed up for my dating site. WWW.plentyoffish.com

I have mixed feelings about online dating. I just immediately assume that people are creepy or just looking to get laid. However, to my surprise there were actually a lot of interesting people on the site. (plus, I'm on the site and I don't consider myself creepy)!!!

The site matches you with guys that you may be compatible with. Most of the guys tend to live in Arlington, Springfield or DC. Almost all of these men are city business men with no time for dating.. I've also met a guy on there who is deaf..I would have no problem with that. To me, communication isn't always about talking anyhow.. so, I'm excited and optimistic.

What I like most about the site is that you pretty much get all of the awkward questions out of the way by creating a profile. This profile answers questions like..

have you ever been married, do you have kids, do you use drugs, do you want kids.. and I'm not saying that people don't lie.. I'm sure some of them do, but for the most part everyone seems to be honest.

I'll keep you posted on the dates.. we will see if they just come flying in. :)

Coming out of the Slump

Ok.. so I'm feeling better. I don't know exactly why I was feeling depressed. I think I was just having one of those weeks. (and it wasn't pms .. ? ) but.. I'm feeling better.
I want to thank all of my friends for being so attentive to my feelings. You helped a great deal by talking me thru it. Thanks Cindy for going to the movies with me last night :) I had a great time, and it was nice to get out of the house and do something fun.
Thanks Roxanna and Shannon for calling me and talking to me.. Shannon - Thanks for giving me the pep talk on how to pick up a man.. I'm going on a dating site called "plenty of fish" . it is a free site and non-religious based. I'm excited!!!

Wish me luck on the dating scene :)

Fall Depression

I think I have it.

Symptons:

Lazy, fatty, sleepy, exhausted, bored, not interested in doing shit, no sex drive (which is unusual for me) and did I mention hungry and lazy?

What do I do to get out of this slump?

Love Yourself

Don't let anyone put you down. You will always be skinnier and always be fatter. Your hair will always be nicer and always be nappier. You'll never be as tall or as short as you'd like.
For those women who have "it" all.. They only have looks and money, but the real question is;
Does that woman have real friends, such as friends who cry with her, friends who hate her boyfriend because hes just not good enough for her? Friends who make her laugh til beer spews out her nose?

Does this woman know the meaning of home? The story behind the hole in the wall.. or the tiny finger prints on the wall from children playing? The days where air conditioning is too cold but just opening up the windows is too warm?

How about family? Does she remember the smell of homemade pumpkin pie.. or uncle Bob dressing up as Santa Clause? Will she remember helping her mom string up the Christmas lights and almost breaking her leg sleigh riding? How about hot chocolate with the marshmallows?

Does she get Food Lion Brand flowers or cookbooks for her birthday? Does her mom bake her a homemade cake for her birthday? Does her family call her and sing her the song? Does her dad wish her a sweet 16th birthday on her 15th birthday? Better question, was he even there on her birthday?

Best question of all.. does this girl know the feeling of love? Does she have a baby sister who takes time everyday to send an email signed with I miss you and I love you - even though she is in Kuwait? Does she have a dad who acts as master chef and gets thrilled at the thought of a delightful dinner? How about a mother who lives for her children? A mother who would die if anything ever happened to her?

I bet that girl who has everything.. has nothing but a nice smile and a great body.

Next time you want a piece of the chocolate cake.. eat it.. and don't forget to share it with your friends and family.. and laugh about it..

The Nightmare Before Christmas 3-D

Don't go see it. It was barely 3-D and it cost $9.25.

I was expecting stuff to come jumping out at my face (you know, a 3D movie).. it didn't.

Happy Birthday Shannon!

Today is my best friend Shannon's birthday. I can't wait to spend it with her and Roxanna :) I love our girls nights out.. and I have always spent Shannons birthdays with her. I love you Shannon.. and Happy Birthday. Can't wait to see you tonight!

Standin In The Kitchen Eatin Pizza

Do you ever get this dazed dreamy feeling and the thought.... How did I get here?

I've had this happen to me a lot in the past year. My life made a dramatic change in November. I had been living with my boyfriend at the time.. and we were fighting.. "but nothing as drastic as he thought".. and one day I came home and was packing my stuff. I wasn't kicked out.. he wanted to move out, but I said no. I couldn't afford the house by myself, plus his brother would live right behind me... ugh, pointless.
So, I packed my stuff, moved back in with my mom. I lived with my parents for about 2 months then moved out into an apartment with my friend Sarah in February. There was a particular night where I was feeling lonely and sad. Sarah was somewhere?? not sure.. but I had cooked a frozen pizza.. frozen, like outside. (it was sooo cold and snowy) and I stood there in my kitchen.. no furniture.. dishes weren't moved in yet.. just me and the pizza and wondered to myself.. how did I get here?
These "occurances" happen I would say once a month.. unless something drastic happens, then it sets one off. I want to say it is almost like a "reality seizure"... you realize that life is changing and your alive. So weird.

I was just wondering if anyone else has these.. "reality seizures"?

WHAT THE HELL???

Chocolate Jesus Returns
Oct. 16, 2007, 4:56 PM EST
The Associated Press

NEW YORK -- Chocolate Jesus is resurrected.

"My Sweet Lord," an anatomically correct milk chocolate sculpture of Jesus Christ that infuriated Catholics before its April unveiling was canceled, returns Oct. 27 to a Chelsea art gallery, its creator said Tuesday. This time, artist Cosimo Cavallaro said he expects the public exhibit to proceed without a problem.

"There is nothing offensive about this," Cavallaro said of his controversial confectionary work. "If my intentions were to offend, if I did do something wrong, I wouldn't be doing this. But I didn't do anything wrong."

Cavallaro, who received death threats before the April show was canceled, said the vast majority of his mail was in support of his six-foot piece.

"I got a lot of positive mail from people in the Catholic Church, people studying theology, people in monasteries — all kinds of letters and e-mails of support," he said.

The last show was criticized for its timing and its location. The exhibit, in a gallery visible to passers-by on a Manhattan street, was set to open one day after Palm Sunday and four days before Christians marked the crucifixion of Christ on Good Friday.

The Catholic League, which led the charge against "My Sweet Lord" back then, said the change to the Proposition Gallery and the exhibition's new opening date would keep it from calling for another shutdown of the sculpture's showing.

"We don't approve of the piece at all, but it's not something we're going to protest," said Kiera McCaffrey, the league's director of communications. "This is much less an in-your-face assault on Christians, and it's not happening during Holy Week."

The exhibit, at the Proposition Gallery in Manhattan, will be accompanied by a set of chocolate Catholic icons created by Cavallaro, a group that includes the Virgin Mary and saints Francis, Augustine, Michael, Jude, Anthony and Fermin.

"After the cancellation of the show, it got me to look into the Catholic religion a little deeper," Cavallero said.

"I started thinking about the saints, how they were ostracized for their beliefs and then canonized."

Cavallaro's work features Christ with outstretched arms, as though hanging from an invisible cross. Unlike traditional religious depictions of Christ, Cavallaro's Jesus lacks a loincloth.

The sculpture is actually a new version of "My Sweet Lord," created with 200 pounds of chocolate over three days. The original was stored in a Brooklyn facility where mice nibbled away at its hands, ears, nose and feet, forcing Cavallaro to toss the original and recast the sculpture.



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I WANT TO GO .......

Interracial Dating.. Is it ok?

According to USA Today, in America 6% of marriages are interracial; in 1970, it was less than 1%. A Gallup Poll on interracial dating in June 2005 reported that 95% of 18- to 29-year-olds approve of blacks and whites dating. About 60% of that age group said they have dated someone of a different race.

So, does this make it ok for me to date a black man? I have a friend.. right now, he is only a friend. I've had a little thing for him for a while now.. but nothing has escalated. He was born in Nebraska, played football for JMU and has a degree in Biology. He is a Virologist.. which means he is incredibly smart. His parents are still together, so he isn't a woman hater. He is clean of drugs, doesn't drive drunk, doesn't abuse women, doesn't cuss his mother out and adores his brother. He loves animals and owns 1 that he treats like a son. He is sweet and gentle (although he weighs about 250+ lbs) lol..
He listens to rock music and wears jeans up around his waist. He has to have his sheets tucked in perfect.. " something he said he learned from his father who was in the airforce". He listens to National Public Radio and is very smart.. almost intimidating.

So, my question is.. Is it ok these days to interracially date? My parents aren't so cool with it.. but would they get used to it? If I like this guy, is it ok? I'm fine with it.. so should I just ignore everyone else's opinions and go for it?

I'm confused but I really like him.

For my friend Roxanna

The Date

So, the date went well. I met him at the movies. I am not cool with a guy picking me up for our first date. He doesn't need to know where I live and he doesn't need that much control yet. He could totally drive me into the wilderness and do whatever with me.. ha
Anyhow, moving on. I met him at the movies at 9:15 .. "movie started at 9:20.. I was late.. oops". He texted me and asked me if I wanted him to get the tickets. I said sure, I'll get our food. So, it worked out to be a pretty even date.
We went to see "Heartbreak Kid". Great movie.. weird sex scenes though, which were awkward for me just because it was my first date with him... So, he and I talked a lot (even during the movie..and I'm not one of those people).. So, I think it turned out well. No hand holding or arm around the shoulder.. but we sat close...... close enough to where our shoulders touched just a little.. and he would lean into my neck and whisper shit talking about the people sitting around us. Like, if you see this movie... it has tons of cussing (dirty dirty cussing from Ben Stiller's Dad) and nudity and just rude rude comedy. There were a couple about the age of 60 in the movie.. and we talked about them all night. Chris would tell me how mad the wife would be for the husband picking that movie.. haha..
So, um.. lets see.. where was I. Um, yeah so we watched the movie and then called it a night. We ended with a nice firm hug and both of us agreeing we should do it again.

So, all in all - date went well.

One thing I'm so confused about these days.. someone please help me with this. Is a man still supposed to pay? I mean, what if you invite him out? I am so nervous when it comes to the paying for the tickets or paying for the dinner.. I don't want to seem like a snob and "expect" to be spoiled.. but, I like to be old fashioned.. so, I usually bring cash and offer to pay my share.. or if he pays for something, I pay for something else.
Any advice .. real advice on how to handle this awkward situation?

Just Talk

I don't have anything of importance to write about today.. so I'm just going to ramble about nothing...

So, I had a gyno appt. this morning. Seemed to go well. I found out I have low blood pressure (I'm assuming that is good) and that I have a beautiful neclace (lol). I had gyno appts. I feel that you should have your appt. your cells should be sent to the lab "right then and there" and you should get your results back immediately. Waiting really sucks! I imagine so many bad things going through my head while I wait those 2 weeks or however long you wait?? My last pap went just fine, so I don't know why I'm freaking.... I just am.

2nd - lets talk about bad drivers. I encountered quite a few of those today. So, I'm driving down Rt. 1 after my appt. on my way to work. Theres a sign that says.... left lane closed ahead, be prepared to stop. At this point, I get in the right lane. (of course, knowing that it is going to be closed up ahead.. I learned to read in 1st grade). Well, do you want to know where all of the traffic comes from? It comes from idiots who drive all the way up to the flashing sign (where you absolutely must get over because the sign that is flashing is blocking the road). Now, my question is ..."hoping that one of my readers is this person". Why in the hell don't you get over when the sign tells you to get over? I mean, do you realize that your causing more traffic by having to cut people off, or wait in the left lane until some really pissed off person in the right lane has to let you over.... My opinion, when the sign says the left lane is closed ahead... get your ass in the right lane immediately!!!

Ok.. last but not least.. I have a date tonight. Yes, a real date. His name is Chris. He is kind of short.. kind of dorky but he is pretty good looking. I met him through my ex boyfriends best friend. (make sense, probably not) anyhow... Chris and I somehow exchanged #'s (I have no idea when, probably a drunk night at the bar).. So, we are going to the movies tonight. I think we are going to see "the heartbreak kid" - ben stiller? I'm hearing from people around me that it is pretty funny.. so I'm excited. I'm excited to go on a date. Usually, I feel nervous.. but I think after the gyno appt. - nothing can make me nervous today. lol.
I'll be sure to update you tomorrow on my date. :) X your fingers and wish me luck!!!

My Pictures Posted

If you look to the right.. you will see I've posted some photos. If you look at the top photo - this is Enrique Iglesias. I've loved him ever since he performed "Hero" during the 911 Telethon. If it weren't for that stupid bitch Anna K... he and I would probably be married. I'm assuming he likes blondes that barely know how to play tennis though.
My next picture represents my life at this very moment. Heartbroken. I've never felt this way before.. but I will tell you, I've never felt so "alive". My feelings are so strong towards everyone and everything..
The last picture, Mark Walberg... he is my other favorite love. I've loved him since the movie "FEAR" which he was so damn sexy.

So, theres a look at just a few of my loves. More to come on future blogs :)

Dreams

I had the craziest dream last night.

I was with my dad, mom, and sister standing outside of the bowling alley. It was dark, cold and rainy and my car was missing. Guess what.. my ex boyfriend Kevin had taken my van and was out driving drunk. I was calling his cell phone and cussing and screaming for him to get the car back to the bowling alley because we wanted to go home. He was completely ignoring me and was drunk out of his mind driving my car. I was T totally Pissed at this point.
He never came back with the car.. but my alarm went off so I woke up.

I decided to research this dream... this is what I came up with......

Abandonment To dream that you are abandoned, suggests that it is time to leave behind past feelings and characteristics that are hindering your own growth. Let go of your old attitudes. A more direct and literal interpretation of this dream is that you have a fear of being deserted, abandoned, or even betrayed. Do you feel that people are neglecting your feelings??
Dreaming that you are abandoned, may stem from a recent loss or a fear of losing a loved one. The fear of abandonment may manifest itself into your dream and is part of the healing process of dealing with losing a loved one. It may also stem from unresolved feelings or problems from childhood.
To abandon others in your dream, suggests that you are overwhelmed by the problems and decisions in your life.

Rain To dream that you get wet from the rain, signifies that you will soon be cleansed from your troubles and problems. Rain also symbolizes fertility and renewal.
To see and hear rain falling, symbolizes forgiveness and grace.
To dream that you are watching the rain from a window, indicates that spiritual ideas and insights are being brought to you awareness. It may also symbolize fortune and love.
To hear the tapping of the rain on the roof, denotes spiritual ideas and blessings coming to mind. It may also suggests that you will receive much joy from your home life.

Drunk Driving To dream that you are driving drunk, indicates that your life is out of control. Some relationship or somebody is dominating you.

Family To see your own family in your dream, represents security, warmth and love. Consider also the significance of a particular family member or the relationship you have with them.

If you look at all of these - it shows that I'm working to get over my ex.. weird

Must be 18 or older to read this blog

Let me tell you about one of the most mortifying nights I've ever had in my life.

Picture this... Saturday night, weather is beautiful.. .. I'm with my ex boyfriend.. who I've been crushing on for a while. Steaks are on the grill... wine is poured drank and re poured.. we light a candle.. listen to some music and enjoy dinner.
After dinner.. we continued drinking wine and played a game of "who knows Lost better".. we quizzed each other on the show.. Winner - gets a back run. (my idea.. I was all about getting physical and I figured it would ignite the flame.. if you know what I mean).. so, well.. I lost so I rubbed his back.. then, after finishing.. he rubbed mine as well. (I think he just wanted to touch me)... well, all of the sudden after about 3 glasses of wine and 2 beers, I was well... let's just say .. DRUNK. So, somehow we made it upstairs .. "I have no idea how I got upstairs.. I could have crawled who knows".. so we get upstairs and I'm laying in his bed. I'm like.. finally, I've been going out with this guy for about 3 months now and it has remained on a strictly flirting friends level.. so here I am in his bed. Oh, I forgot to tell you.. I dated this guy about 5 years ago and he was the 2nd guy I ever slept with.. so it was WEIRD. So, we start kissing and talking.. and guess what..
Off to the bathroom I run to puke the entire night. I sobered up just long enough to have some completely meaningless sex .. which, I wasn't planning on having. I waited and waited for something to be special and alcohol went and excuse me Fucked it up. LOL! Well, we did what we did and back to puking I go. I was so humiliated. He burst into the bathroom as I'm there in nothing but underwear puking my guts out.. and he's like.. Oh my Jenn, are you ok? I'm like.. NO and get out!!! So, this guy goes and gets me some bread... not just any bread, an "onion bagel" gross!!! You don't eat onion bagels when your puking.. so, I took one bite of the onion bagel and back to the bathroom I run again.
Well, finally after passing out.. I woke up the next morning and had to look him in the eye. He says to me.. "would you like a glass of wine" .. I moaned and apologized for being such a lush the night before.. but, I guess that is just how it goes. .. how Fucking Embarrassing

I Thanked God Today...

I am not scared to talk about religion. Honestly, I don't know what I believe. I don't know if there is a God, a Jesus, a Bible, etc.. but I do know one thing.... I believe in Fate.

Around April of this year, I fell in love with one of my cousin's friends. His name was Dee and he had the body of a God. I only made out with him one time. Other than that, he was an arrogant jerk. He flirted with me though.. and it made me fall hard. I was a little upset that he and I had exchanged a night of "passion" I guess.. .. I didn't go all the way if that is what your thinking.. Anyhow, back on the subject.. This guy was flirty and hard to get and you know all girls want that. Well, I really liked him but it didn't work out. He got back with his ex - girlfriend.. and that was that.

Dee passed away this Saturday of a motorcycle accident. I went to his funeral today and all I could think about is how God took care of me. I'm so lucky that Dee didn't like me. I watched his girlfriend as she sat there heartbroken and I prayed to God and said.. "Thank You God.. for not giving me everything I ask for".

RIP Dee and keep Dee's family and fiance in your prayers.

The US is 2-faced

I think it is completely wrong for the United States to complain about American's being obese.

I was talking with Roxanna today and I was worried because I had nothing to write about.... that is until I took a lunch trip to 7-11.
First off, let me start by saying.. 7-11 is not a place to find nutritional lunches. I only stopped by for a flavored water and something to cure my sweet tooth. So, I wondered around the 7-11 weighing out my options... and do you realize, I had to go all the way to the back of the store to find fruit, yogurt, cheese, veggies... pretty much anything healthy. I settled with some yogurt (light and fit actually) and a propel - black cherry flavor ... my favorite.
I noticed as I walked from the back of the store to the register that the food options only became more tempting.. yet more fatty. At the register, they offer the choice of brownies (with or without nuts), cookies, candy, fruit snacks, and gum... why do they not have healthier options up front? Do you think if a freezer / fridge section was below the register and it offered berries, fruit, yogurt, veggies, etc.. that people would opt for the healthier choice?
How can America offer McDonalds, Taco Bell, double serving sized meals at Ruby Tuesday's.. Pie's at Shoneys, All you can eat Buffets .. like Country Cookin.. and the stupid candy and cookies and brownies at the front of the store (first thing you see) and expect us to be skinny? It's like putting a chip n dales dancer in front of me.. ALONE and he's flirting with me .. all over me.. and saying.. DON'T TOUCH.. "right" get real.

Yogurt worked just fine for me.. but don't think I didn't want that brownie.

Act of Kindness

So, my sister (baby sister) - 21 years old is in Kuwait. She was deployed about 3.5 months ago. She spent most of the months in Mississippi, but has been in Kuwait for about 2 weeks now.
My sister ordered a bathing suit online - Just a suggestion, if you ever go to Kuwait be sure to take a 1 piece. The rules are strict on no string bikinis LOL.
So, my sister ordered this 1 piece bathing suit. I guess they wanted to make sure they had her address correct, so they called my mother's house. They actually asked to speak to Lindsay and my mom said.. of course, "sorry, she is in Kuwait". The lady verified the address and the phone number and so forth. She at that point, told my mom to hold on. My mom sat there, listening to the music... and the lady came back on the phone and said.

If this little lady in Kuwait wants a bathing suit... she is getting a bathing suit.

Shipping free of charge for the girl who is protecting us.

I just about cried when my mom told me that... it makes me SO proud of my little sister. .. and it makes me appreciate what she is doing. It also makes me appreciate other people for recognizing how important my sister is to our country :)

I love you Lindsay and I miss you so much.. and I hope you get your little bathing suit little lady !!! LOL :)

What a weekend

Weekend at West Virginia..... where to start.

So, Friday I left work around 3 pm - to make it to Charleston, WV around 9 pm. I got into town and we got ready and went to a bar downtown called "The Sound Factory". My best friend's husband hangs out .. or shall I say is a "groupie" for a band called Freak Tent. (They are ok.. mixture of a punk / heavy metal band). Anyhow, so they have hired a boy by the name of Brett Loudermilk - he is the youngest sword swallower right now. He is the cutest little 18 year old.. and has talent like no other.
This guy literally eats light bulbs and swallows swords. You have questions.. like, how did he figure out he could swallow swords? Are the swords sharp? Etc. Well, the coolest part of the night was the fact that this guy was performing in a quiet little bar with about 15 -30 people. I actually got to talk to him.. oh, and I pulled a sword out of his throat. Literally, went on stage and pulled a sword from his throat. LOL
So, to answer your question.. this guy figured out he could swallow swords by playing around with kitchen utensils. He learned and practiced on spatulas. Also, the blade of the swords are NOT sharp. It is impossible to swallow sharp swords - Like Brett said, "If this was sharp, it would be my last trick". Among swallowing swords, Brett is able to escape from a straight jacket, bend his arms all weird - he is double jointed so it just looks cool. He can walk on swords (and they are actually sharp) and he eats light bulbs. I asked about the light bulbs and what happens after digestion.. you know (in the bathroom). He said he has to take some sort of medicine.. but I totally forgot the name of it. It coats his stomach so that the glass doesn't puncture his belly or butt. :)
Either way.. it was a fantastic performance. I tried to talk him into coming to VA.. he kind of smiled and walked away.. cute little fella.

The rest of my weekend was ok. My cousin was married on Saturday. Have you ever been to a poor white trash wedding? NO?? I suggest you should attend. It was actually a very nice ceremony.. they are in love. But.. just one piece of the wedding.... the bridesmaids dresses were from DEB.

:)

RIP Dee - my friend was killed in a motorcycle accident this weekend... I found out Sunday. He was 23 years old.

Does it Ever End?

Kevin is my ex. We dated 3.5 years and lived together 1.5 of those years. When we met, it was a fairytale relationship.. we were obsessed with each other. We were the type of love where your out in public and your so busy staring in each other's eyes that the people around you disappear.
Moving in together ruined us. We faught all the time and I became a mother more than a girlfriend. Not only that, I wanted to get engaged and he didn't. I figured 3.5 years.. damn, how long are we supposed to wait. Well, around NOV. of last year, Kevin and I had been fighting more than ever. I came home one day to be packing my stuff and moving out. (He wanted to move out, but there was no way for me to afford the place on my own.. so I moved back to my moms). Well, I was REALLY heartbroken.. I couldn't eat, couldn't sleep.. but Kevin made it ALL BETTER when he decided he wanted to continue dating. I figured.. at least I still have him. Well, this went on for about 6 months.. and it started getting serious again. We took vacations to his moms house in NC.. we were saying I love you.. and we were back together.. or so I thought. Well, one day we got into a fight over one of his "girlfriends" because he had went out with her all night and supposedly conveinantly left his phone on his truck overnight... well, being the "supposed" girlfriend I was I got upset. This was around July 5th I think.. it was the same week my grandmother passed away and my sister shipped out for her deployment.. lets just say it was one of the worst days of my life. Either way.. this guy just STOPPED talking to me.. ignored my calls etc. He finally had the nerve to break up with me over TEXT. Ignorant.. YES!!!
So, my question is.. When does it end? When does the pain go away.. I was SO in love and I just feel so crushed. I've met new guys.. like Thomas my fireman and some others.. and they help at the time.. but I just feel so "lost". Everything reminds me of him.. smells, food, clothes he bought me, songs, movies.. even some qualities Thomas has. Is there anything I can do to speed up this healing process? Seriously?
I need some help... because I'm tired of loving him.

I said NO to the Breadstick

Why are some people really skinny and others are just damned overweight? Wait... Metabolism, that's right. So, my boss .. who is in her 40's - has a beautiful house, beautiful kids, rich boyfriends and yes.. she is like 5 '10 and a size 8. This woman sits directly across from me and she eats non-stop all day long... This is her day.. Breakfast - Mcdonalds or Arbys - Snack - Doritos and dip or chips and salsa - Lunch - steak subs, pizzas, speghetti, whatever she orders.. and then snacking later - she eats ice cream, cookies, more chips, etc. Then, she follows all of this down with soda.. and not the diet stuff.
How do I deal with the enemy? Yesterday, she was so kind as to offer me a breadstick. HOW NICE OF HER.. aaghh..
I turned it down though.. yes!

I'm a Poser.

1. How old will you be in five years? 31
2. Who did you spend at least two hours with today? My boss
3. How tall are you? 5'1”
4. What do you look forward to most in the next six weeks? Losing weight
5. What's the last movie you saw in theaters? I am Mclovin! "super bad"
6. Who was the last person you called? My mom
7. Who was the last person to call you? Thomas
8. What was the last text message you received? from Sarah.. too long and inside jokeish
9. Who was the last person to leave you a voicemail? Thomas
10. Would you rather call or text? Text
11. Are you going to give out your cell number here? right here? no.. on the site.. maybe who knows
12. Are your parents married/separated/divorced? Married
13. When is the last time you saw your mom? 2 days ago
14. When is the last time you saw your dad? 2 days ago
15. Have you ever been to a concert? yep
16. What are you wearing right now? jeans, sweatshirt (they keep it at like 65 in the office)
18. Where is your favorite place to be? Beach, WV, couch, bed
19. Where is your least favorite place to be? work
20. Africa-New Zealand-Japan? don't know.. never been to any
21. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years? married and kids
22. Do you tan or burn? Tan
23. What did you fear as a child? my attick
24. What was the last thing that really made you laugh? Sarahs texts
25. How many TV's do you have in your house? 3
26. How big is your bed? Full
27. Do you have a laptop or desktop computer? desktop
28. Do you sleep with or without clothes on? Usually
29. What color are your sheets? light green and jersey knit (best EVER)
30. How many pillows do you sleep with? 2
31. what is your favorite season? Spring
32. What do you like about fall? Smells, atmosphere, Halloween, Thanksgiving
33. What do you like about winter? Hot chocolate, pots of chili, days off of work, doing the hammer dance on my balcony when it is icey, blankets and movies... snowed in
34. What do you like about the summer? tank tops, warm nights, summer breeze, marguaritas, flip flops / sandals, the beach, tans
35. What do you like about spring? My birthday, flowers blooming, being able to have the windows open, fresh air, long sleeves - short sleeves, first pair of capris and flip flops
45. What instant messenger service do you use? I don’t
46. How is your hair currently? pony tail
47. Are you wearing shoes? unfortunately
48. How many glasses of water, a day, do you drink on average? Usually none, but I've started dieting so about 8 - 10 per day
49. What do you drink in the morning? hot tea or water
50. Do you eat breakfast? yes, every morning
51. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed? yes.. the one closest to the door
52. Do you know how to play poker? Yes
53. Do you like to cuddle? sometimes.. unless I'm sweaty then no
54. Do you like hugs or kisses? yep.. I love kissing especially.
55. Favorite TV show? Lost
56. Do you eat dinner out or at home more often? At home
57. What’s your favorite restaurant? Ruby Tuesdays or Carlos O Kellys
58. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you? Yes.
59. Do you want kids? Yes.
60. Have you ever been to a live television show taping? yes
61. Have you ever gotten stitches? Yes.
62. Have you ever ridden in a fire truck? Nope but I've ridden a fireman does that count LOL (sorry for the graphic nature, but I couldn't resist)
63. Do you prefer the ocean or a pool? pool by the ocean
64. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seat? aisle.. I get sick with the window seat
65. Do you know how to drive a stick? yes
66. What is your favorite thing to spend money on? clothes and food
67. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7? yes.. my diamond earrings
68. Do you wish on 11:11? sometimes..
69. Do you get easily embarrassed? not really
71. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? no.. not enough room
72. What is the main ring tone on your phone? Can't touch this.. MC Hammer
73. Do you still have clothes from when you were little? my mom has my very 1st outfit.. aww.. and my daughter will be wearing that very first outfit when she is born in 2045.
74. What orange object is closest to you right now? scissors
75. Do you turn off the water while you brush your teeth? yes.. I'm usually walking around the kitchen or getting stuff in order for work or bed or wherever I'm going
76. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? open usually.. it is sometimes too full to close it lol.
77. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of bees? big bear. it would be quick and easy
78. Do you have a car? yep
79. Are you driving? Right now? yes.. right now I've taken my desktop computer with me on a road trip. Of course not
80. Do you pump your own gas? Yes
81. Can you change the oil on a car? No
82. Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket? no
83. Have you ever ran out of gas while in a car? Yes.. but to be fair, I was parking.
84. What is your usual bedtime? 11:30 - 12:30
85. What was the last book you read? none.. I hate reading
86. Do you read the newspaper? yes.. online though
87. Do you read magazines? Yes.
89. What do you fear most? being alone and never having a family
90. Do you dance in the car? yes sometimes
91. What radio station did you last listen to? B101.5
92. Who is in the picture frame closest to you? don't have a picture frame closest to me.. but, the closest picture is my best friend shannon's daughter Kendall
93. What was the last note you scribbled on a piece of paper? calories of something
94. What is your favorite candle scent? I have 2 - Grapefruit and fresh linen
95. What is your favorite board game? Scattegories
96. What school are you going to and when does it start? no school for me. I should go back though
97. What is your most missed memory in middle school and or high school? parties and school lunch.. yum
98. Who was your favorite teacher in middle/high school? Ms. Blalock. She cracked me up
99. What is the longest you have ever camped out in a tent? 2 days
100. Who was the last person to give you butterflies? My fireman.. yep, last night.. STrange.

FRIENDS

I want to dedicate this post to my world of friends. Each of them are different and have helped me through hard times.

I'll start with Terri - who has been my friend the longest. This girl and I met at a bus stop in 1st grade. We have remained best friends through everything. I moved when I was 15 years old.. 6 hours away from this girl and we are still best friends. I visit her about 3 or 4 times a year. (Really, I just use WV as my vacation spot). Either way, Terri is the type of friend where we can sit in a room quietly watching a movie.. not having to say a word and it is by far the most peaceful time. We are complete opposites but yet we are soul mates. I miss her dearly everyday.

Next - I'll move on to Roxanna... (since I met her first Shannon). Roxanna was one of my first friends when moving to Fredericksburg. We had math and P.E. together. I remember a lot about Roxanna.. like, I always thought it was completely strange that she shaved the bottom of her head ... but getting to know her better.. I understood that the girl just has too much damn hair. I know that when Roxanna is unhappy.. she will walk her ass home! LOL!!! I also have come to realize that this is Roxanna's strong point - she ain't puttin up with no BULL. Roxanna is supportive in everything I've done. She leads me in the right direction by telling me the truth.. like, Jenn.. I hate that outfit. I also love Roxanna's independence and ability to drive us around DC and make crazy plans for us. (DC Party Bus is all I have to say about that). She has fantastic sense of style and is AWESOME with putting on makeup. She helped me a lot during my breakup by taking me places.. and having cute boys dance on me:) She is a best friend for sure.

Shannon - Shannon is the mother of us all. I like talking to Shannon because she is comforting to me. She always has something positive to say about everything. (even if she isn't feeling so great herself). She is caring and compassionate and absolutely loves her friends. I trust her dearly and her opinions on boys.. lol. Shannon and I go way back to Nelly in the truck going diggin.. to shoving leaves down her throat on her birthday. LOL. Shannon is shy and innocent (but completely NOT)... but it amazes me how much she loves her family and her friends. I know that Shannon will always be there for me.. no matter what I've done. She has talked me through some dangerous and crazy shit I've done.. and Shannon was there for most of my regrets and we are able to laugh about this together. She is a best friend for sure.

Cindy - Cindy is my crazy friend. Yep, you heard me.. my crazy friend. Cindy is the friend who is ALWAYS up for anything. I could call her at 1 am (only on a weekend) and say.. Cindy, Iwant to go visit whoever.. and she will say.. ok, you driving or am I? lol. She is the most honest friend I have.. if she doesn't like it.. she makes sure that you know it. If you said it wrong.. she makes sure you know it.. but that is an AWESOME quality to have because I know she is going to set me straight. Cindy and I haven't known each other as long as the other ladies .. but we are growing closer each day.. we have shared a lot with each other.. mostly complaining about boys.. but, hey.. if you don't complain about boys.. what are you going to complain about.
Cindy is a best friend for sure.

Last but not least SARAH - my roomy. Sarah and i have really only been friends for about a year. I met Sarah through my ex - she dated his brother and I dated him. We had a rocky start to our relationship because we moved in together before we really knew each other... but, I think we have really began to work out the kinks. Sarah is the best friend to bitch with... because no matter if shes pissed or not.. she will give you heart when your bitching. She will be pissed at the guy even if it involved her or not. She is a true fighter for her friends. Also, Sarah and i share the same love for food, movies, beer, and boys.. so it is tons of fun sometimes.
Sarah is a best friend for sure.

Well ladies.. you have stolen the spotlight for today.. so don't expect it tomorrow :)

I love you guys.. and wouldn't be myself without you.

I'm better now

SO... everything worked out in my favor reguarding my insurance delay.
I got my birth control and I owe the Dr.s office absolutely nothing. Some person forgot to do their job and leave a note on the computer that said "paid in full".

I joined jazzercise last night. My friend Cindy and I bonded back in the day by going to jazzercise together... and she has been going since February and she looks fantastic. She's been bugging me and bugging me to come back.. so I'M BACK :) Most people view jazzercise as "old lady workouts". Let me tell you... YOUR WRONG! I love jazzercise because it is mostly women. (you will see a husband drug to the class maybe 1 time a week). I also love the music and the routines are FUN! I sweat so bad that it looks like I jumped in a pool. They also offer other classes, like step and sculpting. If your a woman looking to get in shape.... I recommend at least 1 class... give it a try.

Tonight is biggest loser FredVegas. I'm psyched. I have a few things to share with the ladies.. such as some really neato websites I've found.. and my love for jazzercise.

Either way.. it has began!!!!

Ugh I hate it

I'm so pissed right now. So, I went to go and refill my birth control yesterday and yeah.. they wouldn't let me because it has been over a year. How I completely forgot about the most horrible Dr. visit ever?? I don't know.. slipped my mind.
Well, back a year ago I had a really shitty insurance company who said they covered 100% of all routine visits, yet I received a bill for about $400.00. There was a huge battle over them paying it.. not paying it.. etc. So, it got to a point where the Dr.'s office got a lawyer involved. The lawyer sent me a letter and a letter to my insurance company. The insurance company paid (some of most) of the bill but only after being threatened. I then received a letter in the mail saying how it had been paid and everything had been dropped. At this point, I assumed that everything was up to par.
Today, I call the Dr.'s office to get a months prescription fill (you know, so that I don't get pregnant or that my hormones don't rage out of control and to keep the cycle normal) and she says to me.. sorry Jenn, we can't do anything with this until you call the collections office and pay off or at least set up a payment plan of the remainder of your bill. What fucking remainder of my bill? Why is the healthcare system so fucked up that I can't get a months prescription for birth control (because I'm being responsible) and set up an appointment and just pay the damn remainder of this bill at my appointment?
It just feels to me that they are holding my health above my head in order to get me to pay the remainder of a bill I thought was already paid. I don't even know how much I owe??? I'm so confused.
Is there anything I can do? Our Free Clinics suck in Fredericksburg... ugh.

I'm pissed!

WHAT & HOW

Thomas The Fireman.. is a guy I met online. Yes, I've never done it before.. but I couldn't pass it up. I was on myspace one day probably leaving one of my friends some ridiculous comment, or possibly mystalking my ex boyfriend. (I like to see if he has any girls leave him comments, yep it is ridiculous). Anyhow, I get an email from this darling looking guy who looks like loads of fun. He has a truck, a motorcycle (Harley), a boat, a snake, friends, etc. The sexiest part of him, he's a fireman... yum! So, the email reads simple... "Hi there, I'm Thomas I'm from Stafford. What do you like to do for fun around here" etc. He was sweet too. So, I emailed him a few times and invited him to the movies on a double date with the roommate. We met and we got along and he was very attractive. So, to shorten this up.. we have been talking now for about 3 weeks maybe? We get along great and spend a bit of time together.
So, to the point..
WHAT and HOW?

What do I want from him? Well, I think I want a boyfriend.. but I'm not really at the point to mark my myspace as "in a relationship" status.
I do want to only hang out with him. I do want to see him all of the time. I do think of him everyday. I do talk to him on the phone everyday.

So.. the How?
How do I ask him what he wants out of this, without looking stupid?

I'm terrified. I'm scared he wants to be my boyfriend, because I'm not quite sure if I'm ready. I'm scared he will say.. "nothing, we are just hanging out" because then it is going to make me feel like I like him more than he likes me.

So.. what do I do? Let it be and see where it goes? I thought about that.. but I'm concerned that it would just continue on how it is.. and I would never be sure of where we stand.

Is it ok to be confused and not know what you want?

It's my first time... ooh

This is my very first blog. Yep, I have no idea what I'm doing but hey.. I'm going to give it a shot.
I have joined the blog spot for 2 reasons...
1. I am so bored at work and they cut off my myspace.
2. I am going to be joining The Biggest Loser FredVegas... and I need a blog account to share my thoughts, ideas, and recipes...

So, even though I joined for only these 2 reasons, I'm not going to half ass. I'm going to give my blog readers interesting things to read.. and give myself interesting shit to do :)

So, here goes..

My name is Jennifer, but I go by Jenn. I am 26 years old. Born and mostly raised in Charleston, WV. (15 years) and moved to Virginia and have lived here since.
I have 0 boyfriends, 0 husbands, 0 ex-husbands, 0 children, 0 pets, and 1 roommate. So, you think my life would be completely boring? Nah.. not at all. I'm sure in future blogs, you will be cracking up at some of the stuff I do to occupy my time. Oh, and I'm not shy... I will share everything... with you.. and I do mean everything. I pay attention to detail.

So, to give you some ideas of what I'll be moaning and groaning about...

I am on my 5th day of no smoking. I have been a smoker since the age of 18. So that is 8 years, and wow they have gone by fast. I've quit and started and quit and started, just like every smoker out there. You know it is horrible for you, but you do it anyways. You wish you would have never started, but it is too late. Well, it is NOT too late for me. I'm done, put a fork in me!


Also, I am dieting and starting to exercise more. Ex-smokers tend to gain about 10 lbs when they quit smoking, I would prefer to not. So, I am going to mostly watch my calories and stick to exercising at least 4 times a week, moderate to vigorous 30 minutes - 1 hour.

So, I'm going to be a complete bitch to say the least :)

Sorry to all my friends who are going to have to come in contact with me during the next 8 weeks or however long it may take.