Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Too Much to Handle

I have not written a blog for like 3 months. I think I skipped November all together.. but I have a lot of things going on so I need to write about them.

Start.. my moms sick. Really sick in the hospital been in there since Thursday morning sick. So last Monday my mom started getting sick (flu). She had fever, chills, bodyache etc. So we thought nothing of it because it's flu season. So, Wednesday rolls around and she said that she was still feeling really horrible and that we needed to postpone our Thanksgiving dinner toward the end of the weekend. Fine.. no biggy since it would just be us 4 anyhow (mom, dad, sister and myself). So, Thursday morning my dad calls me and says.. "hey, take your mom to the dr. today she said her chest hurts and she's having some difficulty breathing", and at this point he was calm. So, about 15 minutes later I'm on my way to my parents house to go pickup my mom and take her to the dr. I call my dad back so I could suggest he start calling the different medic-1s to see what is open (since it is Thanksgiving). He answers the phone in grave panic. "Nevermind, nevermind. I just called 911. They are on their way.. she is barely breathing and I think she is passing out" and he hung up on me. PANIC! So, my family and I spent the entire Thanksgiving day in the emergency room. My mom was in ICU up until last night, she got her own room. She will be in the hospital until they find out what is wrong with her, which by the sound of things is just about everything! She has pneumonia, emphysema, heart failure a virus etc. They don't know. I know that she had nothing wrong with her before she got sick. So I think it is just a viral infection. She is feeling better though and shes sitting up and eating and everything. I'm still worried non-stop.
So.. Dave came home this weekend. Poor guy. He spent most of the weekend watching me flip out and fight with my sister, slam cabinets, and complain. AND.. the most amazing guy.. he watched my dogs a lot and ended up having to clean up Charlie's shit every single time. I think Charlie has anxiety when I leave. He shit in the house EVERY single time I left. I love Dave for being such a trooper (and hes still calling me LOL). However, on a lighter note. Dave and I went to go see Cirque De sole "Kooza" on Saturday night. It was AWESOME! Coolest thing I've seen lately.

Oh, and on top of that I have pms and I'm trying to diet. I really want a beer, but .. it would make me want to smoke and I refuse to smoke EVER again.. not while drinking, not while driving, not while bored.. not if I was paid. So I feel like I'm dying. I'm going to be a fat miserable cow soon. So I think I'm going to go exercise after work.

Oh, speaking of work. I move to a new office on Monday. I'm pretty excited.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

TGTIF - thank God tomorrow is Friday

Sick and tired of work already. I'm exhausted by the end of the week. Commuting is like working 13 hours a day, but only getting paid for 8.
I hope that soon I get used to the commute. I hope my body will adjust because every night I get home, I have no interest in anything but eating and going to bed.

I'm starting to get annoyed with everything around me. I'm being totally overbearing to my boyfriend. I'm trying to diet while I'm annoyed, which makes it 10x worst. I miss my friends because they are on different schedules. I want to drink a few beers this weekend, but that would interfere with trying to diet.

Pretty much, I'm shit out of luck.

Any ideas on how I can keep myself occupied this weekend? My boyfriend has to work so I will not be seeing him and my friends are either busy taking care of their family or my other friends are drinking. WTF!
I think I might just hibernate this weekend and rent a bunch of movies. I get a massage on Saturday.. Olivia, I can't wait to see you.

It's already time for bed and I've been fighting off the hunger pangs for about 3 hours now.. so I'm out!!! Wish me luck on falling asleep quickly. Tomorrow is Friday.. Thank GOD

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Wednesday Date Night

Is no more :( I miss my boyfriend really bad right now

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Lately...........

I haven't been writing anything. Today I'm going to try and cram all the updates into one blog.. so I can continue on and try to keep up with this.

So.. Work - going so/so. I really like the job and the new people I've met and the "idea" of working at the Pentagon. I feel kind of cool saying I work in DC at the Pentagon. Those who don't know much about the Pentagon or who have never been to DC think the Pentagon is just the coolest most top secret government agent type thing.. it's practically a big high school with adults over 25 (mostly over 40 and retired military) trying to run up and down escalators to get to their office. I'm one of those included. I've never walked and ran so much in my life. I actually think my ass is shrinking (sike I doubt it) .. LOL So.. job cool.. Commuting SUCKS!!! I hate it so bad. I almost cry everytime I get stuck in traffic trying to get home. People.. just f'n merge already!

Um.. Boyfriend - still going strong.. maybe even stronger. He moved to Lynchburg Friday. He's out on his path.. and he's working to find what he needs and wants in life. I support him 100% even though it is less time for me :P I think the move will be such a GREAT thing for him. So.. we will see how it goes. Hopefully he will stay busy and I'll stay busy and we won't miss each other too much.

Baby Lily is here - although I haven't gotten to see her much. Just a few times.. but shes beautiful and big :) Roxanna looks absolutely amazing and it just proves how brave women can be. Makes me think twice about the "no drugs during delivery" idea I've had concrete in my mind for so long.. but to each his own.. we will see when my day comes YEARS from now LOL. I'm hoping for a miracle drug / pill that just puts me out until the whole thing is over!

As for me myself.. I have decided to go BACK on a diet. I started today.. I'm not even really hungry because I'm so sick of eating. I have been endulging sp? in fast food for about 3 weeks now and I'm starting to feel sick and I have constant heartburn and I know it is what I'm eating and when I'm eating. So I've decided since during the week I won't see my boyfriend, nor my friends... I'm going to start working out and cooking again. Maybe possibly start my dinner nights with Cindy.. although I'm sure she wants to eat at a normal time. My dinners are usually around 7 and 8. I don't know exactly how easy it is going to be to fit a workout in my day.. but even if it is 30 minutes, thats 30 minutes I didn't do before. Slowly.. but surely. I just need a routine!

Oh.. and I almost forgot. I had to drop both of my classes, so I'm not longer a college kid :( My humanities class was at 5:30 and there is absolutely no way I could make it home in time. Then my aerobics class wasn't until 7, but I couldn't hardly make that one either. He wanted me to not miss more than 2 days and I had already missed 3 and a 4th one happened and I realized everyday would be a struggle.. so I elliminated the stress. I am going to definitely look into taking online classes next semester... now that I can afford to take as many classes as I want.

Monday, September 29, 2008

Saturday, September 27, 2008

I got a j ob

at the Pentagon. I got a job as an administrative support specialist in some office that supports the office of the secretary of defense. I start Monday. I'm excited, but I'm really scared.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

I Fucked it UP

I went to my interview on Friday... Completely lost my mind and turned into a complete airhead! I was completely fine until the woman made me sit directly beside her. I was really uncomfortable.. what happened to the old fashioned sit across from someone and make eye contact? So I started sweating and freaking out and the phrase.............. AND STUFF............. came right on out. At least it was a practice interview.

I have an interview with the Pentagon. Actually it is with a company called Facility Technology Services, but located at the Pentagon. I'm actually really excited about this one... it pays REALLY well considering I never finsihed college. So, I really hope I don't F this one up!

Thursday, September 18, 2008

I have an interview tomorrow

At 2 pm I have a job interview with a company called ITT Sensor. I found the ad in the Free Lance and I went online and applied. I got a call the next day and was set up with an interview.

This company is located in Fredericksburg.


I also got a call from the Pentagon. A company called Information Tech Solutions. The pentagon.. crazy. I'm scared

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

and... Now I've Lost My JOB

Yeah that is right.. I went to work on Friday and there was a "Reduction in Force" which means.. contract came to an end and they had 3 admins and only 2 positions and based on my only being there 9 months I was out. Just like that.. done. I did get some pay to last me until about Oct. 7th. So for now I'm jub hunting like Steve Irwin.
I was really upset on Friday.. and at moments I'm still REALLY REALLY pissed off. Mostly I just feel so alone on this stupid fucking journey that I "must" go on.. as my mother says. Even if my friends are there or not.. I feel alone and it sucks.
They say when God gives you lemons, make lemonade.. well I wish God would even hand me a lemon. I get a direction in which the tree is in.. thats about it.
For once in my life.. can something just be stable and steady. That is all I've ever asked for.. Stable and Steady.
So.. hopefully this will turn out positive. I'm going to keep an open mind and a closed wallet (hahaha) through this stupid month and just hope that maybe I will find something better.

Sunday, September 7, 2008

I've lost my mind...........

So this post is about as random as they come.. but hey, I'm blogging.

Do you ever feel nuts? I'm talking about the kind of crazy where you freak out over nothing, you can catch yourself on the verge of tears with nothing sad happening? The crazy where you think something might happen that day.. something really bad like a car accident or a fucking tornado or something stupid like that. I know that anxiety is here and there and everyone gets it. Lately I've felt completely psychotic. Of course, I have pms. Shocking that I'm a fuckin loon the 5 days before aunt comes to visit. Either way... I have being crazy!! So.. I'm really excited. Crazy that I'm excited.. nah.. I went to the dr. 2 weeks ago and she switched my birth control. She put me on yaz and I get to start taking it next week. I REALLY REALLY hope it helps with my pms.

and. let me start by saying I have the worst GD indigestion I've ever had and it has lasted now for about a month 1/2 maybe.. something around there. No matter what I eat or drink.. I end up practically puking in my mouth, can't sleep and the other night I woke up in fear I was having a heart attack. I feel like drinking a whole gallon of milk.. but it doesn't help. That just causes my stomach to hurt. So I started taking 1 tablet of alkaseltzer a night. That seems to work pretty well so far. When should I go to the dr? I really don't want any kind of tube put down my throat, my nose or up my ass!!! For now I'm going to avoid spicy and fried foods and I'm going to try and eat slower. Drinking more water too I guess. I just hope that something helps. Maybe I'm just getting old.. Damn it!

2nd.. lets talk about my aerobics class. I'm definitely really glad I'm taking this class. It is a 2 credit class at Germanna. It is motivation to work out because.. hey, if I don't go I don't pass and I don't ever graduate. It's more motivation than spending money on a gym! hahaha.. so here we are in aerobics class. First day.. they made us do interval training and made us jump rope. FUCK THAT I do not ever want to do that again!!! I saw stars and almost threw up when i got to my car. Funny thing.. I was on a jump rope team when i was young LOL.. man wouldn't it be completely awesome to have that energy back again. So Thursday we had a physical fitness test.. and they say you can't fail.. but I definitely FAILED. I'm FAT. No really.. it's proven now. hahaha.. My body fat % is 28%. That means that over a quarter of my body is fat. That is just not cool. 32# is obese and 20-25% is average. Looking at this situation "glass half full" at least I'm closer to being normal than being obese. :) Oh, and I also have a horrible.. horrible resting heart rate. normal is 50-70ish. Mine..85. My poor heart is going to pump right out of my chest.. Hey, maybe that is why I have heart burn? who knows.. So.. not only am I avoiding fatty foods (as stated above) I'm going to start working out more too. I have another physical fitness test in 3 weeks and I'm really hoping to see an improvement. My grandfather had heart attacks and my mom's mom died of heart failure. I need to start with this now before I'm dying at the age of 55 from heartburn, pms and obesity!

Last.. I totally told my boyfriend I loved him. Drunken TEXT. I'm serious.. yep, most people wait for this "special" moment in a relationship to look each other deep into the eyes and confess their dying love. Not me.. i text it at midnight while I'm drunk taking a humanities quiz online. I told him exactly how I felt. I was almost humiliated.. but now I think about it, I laugh outloud. It's comical because the 2 of us aren't emotional people. We don't hold hands in the movie theater or stare at each other while we're eating. We're chill.. he does his thing I do mine and we are friends. It's awesome. The next day after my stupid drunken text (btw.. fuck vodka I'm not drinking it anymore) anyhow, the next day he came over.. so I didn't scare him away! shew... haha. Plus, we have been dating 9 months.. hey, todays the 7th. 9 months today actually, so it's not like we've only been dating 2 months or something. It's not completely crazy and irrational that I love him. I just feel so cheezy now

So.. thats what I've been up to. Dave leaves for Lynchburg end of September / beginning of October. I'm still waiting for Roxanna to let me meet Lily. I think she is starting to be selfish and not allowing Lily to make new friends, but hey ;). I'm going to school 4 nights a week and thats about it.

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

He's leaving :(

Dave's leaving at the end of September. Lynchburg.. I know it is only 2 - 3 hours away but I think I'm really freaking out. He and I have talked about it and we want to continue our relationship. We will just see each other on the weekends. I was fine at first because I don't think I'd really thought about it. Now I'm really upset. I don't know if today is just a bad day and I'm just overall stressed by other things like my school and homework and no sleep and stuff or that I'm just really dreading him leaving. Maybe a mixture of both. Maybe the unknown.. like, what if I put everything into this and he is just too busy with his new job. What if it gets to the point where we feel like strangers.. that would really suck. People say whats meant to be is meant to be no matter what happens. I don't like that theory at all. I definitely live by it.. but I don't have to like it. Why can't things just be simple.. I'm starting to feel angry. Not towards Dave at all.. I am happy for him and I want him to do what he needs to do to fulfill his life. If he's not satisfied with himself how can he make me happy.
What bothers me most is that I can't just look at Dave and say... I'm going to miss you or I really don't want you to leave it really upsets me. Instead I just play it off like it doesn't bother me. It does. It bothers me a lot. It bothers me to the point where I'm dreading the end of the month. I hate it

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

School.. School.. I like School

School starts Monday. I'm really REALLY excited. I know it sounds completely lame considering I'm 27 years old and I should've graduated ancient years ago.. but I'm really excited.
Although........... I got my humanities book in the mail the other day. Gag me with a spoon it's about the most boring book I've ever seen, well other than the western civilization book that I had back in high school. I was thinking.. humanities, hmm... I'll learn about cultures and it will be very similar to sociology, which I loved in college. Not nearly cool in comparison at all, I see a lot of structural designs and geographical stuff going on in that book. Not cool. I hate history. My work pays for 100% of my classes if I make over a C though.. so I'm going to learn to love it.

I start Monday. Can't wait.

Monday, August 4, 2008

Is Red In?

I hope so.. because I dyed my hair red. It was supposed to be a nice subtle auburn but it turned out to be a rose red. I think I like!

Thursday, July 31, 2008

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Fall

I'm so excited for fall to get here.

I'm tired of the kids at my pool screaming all day long. I'm tired of feeling pale when I'm actually not. I'm tired of the 100 degree weather and sweat. I want to put on jeans and long sleeves. I want to feel chilly when I walk outside. I want to enjoy a bowl of soup (one of my favorite meals) and not feel weird for eating soup in 100 degree weather.

I love fall.

Thursday, July 24, 2008

The Way We Were

the way we were

My friend Erin had this on her blog, so I'm playing along. :)

The rules are simple:

1. Everyone leave a comment with a memory of me. Whether you've known me for a really long time or not long at all, you can add whatever you like! Something, anything!

2. If you continue it on your blog, then I'll come over and add a memory of you! And if you don't have blog, I'll tell my memory in the comments.

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Things I Want



This Perfume



Diamond Hoop Earrings




Caffeine Eye Gel

Thursday, July 17, 2008

My AWESOME Boyfriend....

Bought me tickets to go see New Kids On The Block.

:)



Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Stop Feeling Sorry For Yourself!

So.. It's been about a week since my last post.. The Quarter life Crisis. I bought a book.. haven't read a single sentence in the book. I decided to make a move and actually DO something with myself instead of sitting around feeling miserable. I joined the gym.
I didn't realize how bored I was just sitting around my house watching tv. I mean.. I am definitely running behind on my laundry but I feel awesome. I spend about 1 and a half hours at the gym every night. I joined Saturday.. the only day I haven't gone is Sunday.. which I slept all day with my boyfriend.. nice, awesome, relaxing. Oh.. wait, I woke up long enough to eat some pizza HA.
Either way.. I plan on reading the book and getting my shit together.
Thanks guys for the support.. I really appreciate it :)

Monday, July 7, 2008

Quarter Life Crisis.. I have it

The quarterlife crisis (QLC) is a term applied to the period of life immediately following the major changes of adolescence, usually ranging from the ages of 21 - 29. The term is named by analogy with mid-life crisis. It is now recognised by many therapists and professionals in the mental health field[citation needed].

Abby Wilner and Alexandra Robbins co-authored the first book to identify this phenomenon: 'Quarterlife Crisis, the Unique Challenges of Life in your Twenties'(Tarcher, 2001). Across the Atlantic, Damian Barr wrote the first book offering practical solutions based on extensive peer research: 'Get It Together: A Guide to Surviving Your Quarterlife Crisis' (Hodder, 2004&2005). A number of other books on the quarterlife phenomenon have since been written in different countries. An early version of the phenomenon was posited by Erik H. Erikson although the current manifestation, as Wilner, Robbins and Barr argue, is different.


Characteristics of quarter-life crisis may include:

feeling "not good enough" because one can't find a job that is at one's academic/intellectual level
frustration with relationships, the working world, and finding a suitable job or career
confusion of identity
insecurity regarding the near future
insecurity concerning long-term plans, life goals
insecurity regarding present accomplishments
re-evaluation of close interpersonal relationships
disappointment with one's job
nostalgia for university, college, high school or elementary school life
tendency to hold stronger opinions
boredom with social interactions
loss of closeness to high school and college friends
financially-rooted stress (overwhelming college loans, unanticipatedly high cost of living, etc.)
loneliness
desire to have children
a sense that everyone is, somehow, doing better than you

These emotions and insecurities are not uncommon at this age, nor at any age in adult life. In the context of the quarter-life crisis, however, they occur shortly after a young person – usually an educated professional, in this context – enters the "real world".[1] After entering adult life and coming to terms with its responsibilities, some individuals find themselves experiencing career stagnation or extreme insecurity. The individual often realizes the real world is tougher, more competitive and less forgiving than they imagined. Furthermore, the qualifications they have spent so much time and money earning are not likely to prepare them for this disillusionment.

A related problem is simply that many college graduates do not achieve a desirable standard of living after graduation. They often end up living in low-income apartments with roommates instead of having an income high enough to support themselves. High underemployment for college graduates contributed to this problem[citation needed]; spiraling house prices are exacerbating it. Substandard living conditions, combined with menial or repetitive work at their jobs create a great amount of frustration, anxiety and anger. Nobody wants to admit to feeling like a 'loser'; this secrecy may intensify the problem.

As the emotional ups-and-downs of adolescence and college life subside, many affected by quarter-life crisis experience a "graying" of emotion. While emotional interactions may be intense in a high school or college environment – where everyone is roughly the same age and hormones are highly active – these interactions become subtler and more private in adult life.

Furthermore, a factor contributing to quarter-life crisis may be the difficulty in adapting to a workplace environment. In college, professors' expectations are clearly given and students receive frequent feedback on their performance in their courses. One progresses from year to year in the education system. In contrast, within a workplace environment, one may be, for some time, completely unaware of a boss's displeasure with one's performance, or of one's colleagues' dislike of one's personality. One does not automatically make progress. Office politics require interpersonal skills that are largely unnecessary for success in an educational setting. Emerging adults eventually learn these social skills, but this process – sometimes compared to learning another language – is often highly stressful.

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

I Love My Sister :)




This is my sister and I. She kind of looks like a peacock or some sort of bird in this picture though. HA!!!

Monday, June 30, 2008

My Little Man is Growing!!!



Charlie is now 8 months old.

He chewed a hole in my carpet this morning!!

Thursday, June 26, 2008

I Love These Things.. :)

1) Favorite hobby?
cooking




2) How do you feel about your ex?
I feel good now. I'm glad it is over and we've gone our separate ways. I believe we are both much happier now.




3) Do you own guns?
never!




4) What flavor do you add to your drink at sonic?
don't drink those




5) Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
Just the girly Dr... I hate that visit




6) What do you think of hot dogs?
cheap, conveinant and awesome




7) Favorite Christmas song?
ha.. All i want for christmas by Maria Carey.




8) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
hot tea or diet soda




9) Can you do push ups?
dont know




10) Can you do a chin up?
i highly doubt it




11) What is your favorite piece of jewelry?
my diamond earrings and my dragonfly neclace




12) Do you like blue cheese?
sure




15) What's one thing that you hate about yourself?
I overanalyze everything


16) Middle name?
Michelle




17) Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment?
I can't believe Im hungry again, I can't wait to get off work, swimming sounds so relaxing right now



18) Name 3 things you bought yesterday?
soda, gum, water




19) Name 3 drinks you regularly drink?
diet pepsi, tea, water




20) Current worry?
umbrella for my table outside




21) Current hate right now?
having to work tomorrow




22) Are you in love with someone?
I dont know yet.. I don't say No and I don't say Yes


23) How did you spend your birthday this year?
at Cheeseburger with my peeps




24) Where would you like to be right now?
at my pool




25) Name three people who will complete this?
cindyLoud and maybe Roxanna and Olivia or Katherine.. but they've been busy


26) Do you own slippers?
yes but I never wear them




27) What shirt are you wearing?
blue shirt




28) Do you like sleeping on satin sheets?
dont know.. I do own a pair .. came from Roxanna. They are hot pink HA




29) Can you whistle?
Yep.




31) Would you be a pirate?
no.. my eyes are horrible. There is no way I could wear a patch.




32) What songs do you sing in the shower?
head shoulders knees and toes. don't ask!!




33) Favorite girl's name?
Annette. Its my sisters middle name.. I want to name one of my kids with that name



34) Favorite boy's name?
Sebastian. I know.. its kind of gay. I still really like that name.




35) What's in your pocket?
nothing




36) Last thing that made you laugh?
work people talking about the boss coming back Monday.




37) Best bed sheets as a child?
they were dark blue with white stars.. tiny little stars.



38) Worst injury you've ever had?
sledding.. I tore some muscle up in my groin. (I flipped and landed in a split). I couldn't walk for 3 days and I've haven't been as flexible ever since.




39) Do you love where you live?
Absolutely!!!!




40) How many TVs do you have in your house?
3




41) Who is your loudest friend?
Dave by far.. hes as loud as me


42) How many dogs do you have?
2 in the house. 1 is mine and 1 is my sisters




43) Does someone have a crush on you?
I think he does :)




44) What is your favorite flavor of Ice Cream?
chocolate chip cookie dough. A Chipwhich is the best of all time!!!






45) What is your favorite book?
dont read




46) What is your favorite candy?
sixlets or mounds.. (no nuts)




47) Favorite Sports Team?
none




48) What song do you want played at your funeral?
whatever song my family wants to play


49) What were you doing 12 AM last night?
attempting to sleep. Woke up to talk to my sister




50) What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
how I should just call out of work.. no one will know that I'm not truly sick. I just want to sleep.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Cindy this one took Forever!!!

I did the survey that cindy had on her blog. Google Survey

Age on your next birthday:


A place you'd like to visit:


Your Favorite Place:


Your favorite object:


Your favorite food:


Your favorite animal:


Your favorite color:


Town you were born:


Town where you live now:


Name of a past pet:


Name of a past love:


Best Friend's nickname:


Your screen name:


Your first name:


Your middle name:


Your last name:


Bad habit of yours:


Your first job:


Name of grandmother:


College/Grad major:

Thursday, June 19, 2008

This really is a Ramble

I haven't written on this blog in a while.. and I have about 30 minutes to waste before I go home from work. So.. here goes

Likes: I love my family, Friday night dinner nights with my friends, vegetarian cooking on Tuesdays with Cindy, holding baby Kendall, my puppy Charlie, watching movies with my sister on random Monday nights, my apartment, my bed, law & order reruns, daisies, the lunch table at work, cold leftover mac n cheese, spicy hot foods, my hybrid car these days, laying at the pool at the hotel at the beach, flip flops, getting pedicures, massages, wearing pajamas, jeans and tshirts, the sound of my moms voice after a long weekend away, my dads cooking, pregnant women, chocolate chip cookie cakes, kit kat blizzards, cookouts, smoothies, neclaces, cooking, arbor mist wine, diet pepsi, snow, perfume, the feeling right after I've cleaned the apartment, candles, movies, music, my couch, my blanket, my wine glasses given to me as a housewarming gift from my aunt, I love puppies, the color green, new recipes, my cell phone, my job, fresh black ink, weddings, stars, swimming, waking up early saturday mornings, long walks right as the sun is going down, my boyfriend, budlight, mojitos, telephone calls to my bff Terri in WV, thunderstorms, going back to WV my hometown to visit, and the kisses I get from my puppy charlie in the mornings.

Dislikes: motorcycles, getting IN the ocean, rides that go round and round, razor burn, the fact that I chew my nails, chocolate ice cream, needles, my moms pessimism, my dads sarcasm, the fact I always speak my mind without thinking, fake plants, price of gas, my dresser and nightstand, people taking my stories out of context, people who constantly get knocked up and can't take care of their kids while there are loving people out there who can't have kids, people who have to drive all the way to the very end of the on-ramp of the interstate even if I've left a large gap for them to get over, the smell of fish food, hard core rap, the sound of my alarm, Katherine Zeta Jones and Brad Pitt, traffic on my way home from work, any weather over 100 degrees, having a crappy metabolism, kids in the pool, waking up 10 minutes before your alarm goes off, bathing suits, druggies, and when my car fucks up.

Friday, June 6, 2008

There is Good Left in This World

So I almost cried on the way to work today. I drive Rt. 1 from Fredericksburg to Stafford.. and today the police academy was jogging on the side of the road. I think they were new graduates maybe or something "worth celebrating". So there were 2 cop cars in front and like 3 cop cars in the back of this group... they were all running very proudly. Leading this group was a small boy (looked as if he was the age of 14).. he was carrying the torch. As I took a closer look, I realized this wasn't a young boy at all. This was a mentally disabled young man. Seriously.. the water built up in my eyes. These men and women were so proud of him.. and this was by far one of HIS most proudest moments. I'm proud of him.

It just goes to show that there is goodness left in this world. I wanted to honk, get out of my car and go hug all of them :)

Thursday, June 5, 2008

Damn it to Hail

I had the largest hail storm over top of my apartment last night. The hail was about the size of quarters and it was really loud and really scary. I bet it would hurt if you were stuck out in that stuff!

Friday, May 23, 2008

Stole from ERIN

ABC

A. Attached or Single- attached

B. Best Friend(s)- Terri from WV (my childhood friend since 1st grade) my sister obviously, Shannon M., Roxanna and Cindy

C. Cake or Pie- Cherry or Apple pie

D. Day of Choice- Friday (starting at like 3:30 pm)

E. Essential Item- cell phone

F. Flavor of Ice Cream- chocolate chip cookie dough

G. Gummy Bears or Worms- neither

H. Hometown- Charleston, WV

I. Indulgences- greasy food and beer

J. January or July- July

K. Kids- hopefully by 30

L. Last movie I saw in a theater- chronicles of narnia

(M is Missing in Action)

N. Number of siblings- 1 sister (younger)

O. Oranges or Apples- apples

P. Phobias or Fears- needles, riding in cars with other people driving (i hate it)

Q. Quote- "Oh my God.. thats so 80's. You might as well just go out and buy yourself a transam" - White chicks

R. Reasons to smile- Life, love, freedom

S. Season- Spring or summer

T. Tag 4- Cindy, Roxanna, Lisa, Katherine (if she hasn't already done it by now)

U. Unknown fact about me- I have a molar missing. I got it pulled a year ago.

V. Vegetarian or oppressor of Animals- I love animals.. but I have to eat meat.

W. Worst Habit- pulling out my eyelashes when I am stressed (Erin.. i do this too). I'm going to have to say biting my nails though. Disgusting!!

X. X-rays or Ultrasounds- none

Y. Your favorite Food- mac n cheese, fried chicken, chili

Z. Zodiac- Taurus

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

1 Tequila, 2 Tequila, 3 Tequila.. OH NO

Ok so I think I've finally recovered from my birthday. Um.. lets just say I think I had about 8 beers, half of the strongest mojito ever made and about 5 shots. Thats half of my age in drinks.. YUK!!
From my understanding.. I pretty much behaved myself. I remember most.. but some things are a little blurry.. so I figured I'd share my "intoxifying experience" is that a word.. LOL

Ok.. so first off, lets start with my boyfriend. I don't do PDA.. unless I'm drinking. His friend has pictures of us making out at the table. (NOT my style)

2nd - I have pictures on my cell phone of Shannon M and I.. um, don't remember them.. and I took them!!! HA

3rd - my cousin had a girl with him that supposedly I did not like. She came over and said.. happy birthday. I looked at my cousin and pointed to the girl (who was directly in front of me) and said.. Um, NO.. I don't like her! (as if I had met her before.. ha) Luckily I didn't get my ASS KICKED!!!

4th - let me tell you about some fun stuff. So Dave and I got to my apartment and laid down.. did a little make out until I had to sleep sitting up to avoid the pukage. However, still didn't avoid the puke. I was heading towards the fridge to get some water.. and yep.. sure enough.. puked in my kitchen sink.


Question is..... did I have fun? YES.. I had a fucking blast!!! I know I can still party like I'm 21.. although I'm now 27. I just entered my late 20's acting like a jackass.. priceless ~ ~ ! ! !

Friday, May 16, 2008

Cheeseburger in paradise...... paradise

We are going there tonight for my birthday. There is no set time and no set limit on alcohol and food. I plan on getting a little sloppy. If you would like to join.. your all invited!!!

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Read .. ONLY.. if you are able to think like a 10 year old!!

So my sister and I were having a very intellectual sp? conversation last night. Keep in mind.. tomorrow I will be 27 years old and my sister is 22 years old. We were talking about the word "POOP". Yes, thats right.. if you don't think your mind can stoop to a 10 year olds.. please don't read any further.

So.. my sister says to me.. with the most serious face. I wonder who came up with the word.. POOP. Like, it is such a strange word. So.. me being right brained and creative said.. well, personally I think that it was meant to be spelled "ploop" like the sound it makes when it hits the water. (again, still serious).. but I think that someone accidentally left out the l. Then.... giggles. We laughed until we cried.

Now I'm curious though.. where does that word come from? I don't really know if googling the word "poop" is going to get me the results I'm looking for. Any thoughts on that so strange interesting word?

HA :)

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

What a wonderful 2 weeks

Ok.. so it has been about 2 weeks I think since I've last blogged... However, don't think I've forgotten about you.. I've just been incredibly busy.





MY SISTER MADE IT HOME





I got a new couch.. this is my couch but mine is tomato RED :)





AND .... Friday is my Birthday :)

Thursday, April 24, 2008

I stole it from FURY!!!!

1. Your middle name? Michelle.. French for Michael my dad's middle name. Are we french? Nope

2. Your favorite color? Green

3. Your birth month? May

4. Do you think everyone should act their age? No because then I would have to start acting responsible.. I don't know if I'm ready!!! :)

5. Would you rather live in a mansion or cottage? A cottage.. who the fuck wants to clean a mansion. Plus, it is hard enough to get the air just right in my tiny ass apartment..

6. Is your home perfectly spotless or lived in? my bedroom is alright.. my closet.. Well...

7. Do you love your life? Sometimes

8. Do you want kids? Yes

9. Are you in a relationship? yes I think.. ?? weird I know

10. Do you have a soul mate? Yes my best friend Terri. I love my other bffs too.. but Terri and I have been best friends since 1st grade. I moved 6 hours away when i was 15 and we are still bffs. We can sit in a room in silence and have a good day.

11. City life or country life? country

12. Sports or theater? theater.. but I don't DO either

13. Books or movies? movies.. I can't get into books

14. Poetry or Music? Music

15. Dinners out or at home? I like dinners at home. I love to have buffet style dinners hosted by yours truly.. like potato bars, salad bars, taco bars, etc. It's fun

16. Romantic is a walk in the woods or on the beach? walking isn't romantic when your 5'1.. its more like a hike on trying to keep up. Romantic is when your laying in bed after a few drinks and hes kissing you on the cheek goodnight.. thats romantic to me

17. Home in the Mountains or on the Beach? Neither.. home is in the suburbs. That way you can visit the mountain or the beach when you need to get away

18. Mornings or nights? Nights

19. Is the glass half full or half empty? It's half full... or in my case finished. ha

20. Coffee or tea? Tea

21. Beer or Soda? Soda (diet though)

22. An energy drink or juice? energy drink

23. Are you the Driver or passenger? Driver

24. Are you the Leader or follower? Leader

25. Are you pessimistic or optimistic? optimistic

26. Save the Whales or Save the Rainforest? Save those damn animals on the SPCA commercials.. Save BETTY.. that dog

27. If given the option, would you give money or food? depends on the conveinance

28. Would you give someone a second chance? A friend maybe.. a boyfriend no. If he disrespects you once... he will probably do it again (thats just in my experiences)

29. What’s the hardest thing for you to give? control. I like to have it

30. Why?
Because I have a really hard time trusting people to make the right decisions.. I feel that I should make my own decision because i'm the one in charge of where my life goes

31. Honesty even if it hurts or a white lie to make them feel better? Honesty.. go ahead and get it out of the way so you can move on.

32. What’s the one thing that really sets you off? selfishness

33. Tough love or forgiveness? tough love

34. One for all or All for one? I don't know

35. What’s your top regret? Not opening my eyes and seeing what was going on all along. This goes for more than just my breakup.. this goes with life in general

36. What’s the one thing you would change about your life? I'd have a college education. That is really the only thing I feel I'm missing right now

37. What’s the one thing you would like people to know about yourself? I'm the most caring compassionate person you'll ever meet.. but I have a tough exterior that sometimes makes me seem like a jerk.

38. What’s one thing you would change about yourself? I'd have better eye sight and would have gotten my wisdom teeth out a long time ago (I'm scared)

39. What do you think of the phrase "Good Intentions"? You fucked up.. LOL

40. Do you believe in love? Yes

41. Can love die? yes

42. Is love blind? yes.. when your in love you think that person can do no wrong.. when really they are doing wrong right in your bed in your house together!!!


43. Whats the one thing you could never forgive? Cheater.. once you cheat your relationship will never be the same..

44. Do you believe in second chances? no

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

A little TiDbIt bout ME

TAURUS TIDBITS:

Health
Each sign has a part of the anatomy attached to it, making this the area of the body most sensitive to stimulation. The anatomical areas for Taurus are the throat, neck, ears, vocal cords, thyroid, tongue, mouth, tonsils, and the lower teeth.

Ruling Planet
The ruling planet for Taurus is Venus. This planet's action is gentle and harmonious. It governs beauty, charm, emotional contacts, possessions, unions of all kinds, singing, art, culture, sweets, and moral character.

Color
The color of choice for Taurus is pink.

Gemstone
Taurus' star stone is the Emerald.

Lucky Numbers
Taurus' lucky numbers are 2 and 8.

Compatibility
Taureans are most compatible with Virgo and Capricorn.

Opposite Sign
The opposite sign of Taurus is Scorpio.

The Perfect Gift
Soft fabrics, floral scents, cookbooks, flowers, candy

Likes
Gardening, cooking, working with hands, music, romance, high-quality clothing

Dislikes
Sudden changes, complications, insecurity of any kind, synthetic fabrics

House
Natural sign of the Second House. This house focuses on values, freedom, earning ability, possessions, and inner and outer resources.

Famous Taureans
Randy Travis, Jack Nicholson, Cate Blanchett, George Clooney, David Beckham

Best Travel Destination
Ireland, Switzerland, Sweden, Russia

Strength
Dependable, patient, musical, practical

Weakness
Stubborn, uncompromising, possessive

Charismatic marks
Solid, big bones, tendency to gain weight

Best environment
A secluded home close to nature. Good food is also important. Beauty and comfort are a must.

Monday, April 21, 2008

I'm posting 2 times in one day

I got tagged YO!!! ha. Katherine tagged me.. so here goes


6 unspectacular quirks

1. I can't sleep with my blankets tucked in. My feet must be hanging out of the blanket at all hours of the night. I'll smother if not.

2. I always use 2 packets of splenda in my herbal tea. Not 1, not 3. 2 and only 2.

3. I can't walk straight. Honestly.. if I'm walking beside you and your on my left.. I'm going to start walking towards the left. If your on my right.. I'm going to start walking to the right. My boyfriend hates it. HA!

4. I open sodas .. drink 1/2 and then let them sit.

5. I drive the speed limit. It's annoying to everyone that has ever been in my car. I refuse to speed. I'm way too paranoid.

6. I can never keep a clean car. I'm the messiest most disgusting junk collector you've ever met.

Pollen = Sick = Crappy



Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Step by Step.. ooh baby.....

Step 1: I signed up for classes at Germanna
Step 2: I get my clearance tomorrow
Step 3: Just 3 more weeks til my sis gets home
Step 4: I text messaged my roommate today to see if my sister could move in may 1st (our lease ends May 31st) and since she isn't living there I'm hoping she will be cool and save herself 500 bucks. "we'll just have to wait and see on this one"


So.. I'm walking the steps to my goals in life.. and I'm damn fucking excited!!

Friday, April 4, 2008

This Seemed Perfect After Yesterdays Blog

All women should live so long as to be this kind of old lady!

Toward the end of Sunday service, the Minister asked, 'How many of you have forgiven your enemies?'

80% held up their hands.

The Minister then repeated his question.

All responded this time, except one small elderly lady.

'Mrs. Neely?'; 'Are you not willing to forgive your enemies?'

I don't have any.' She replied, smiling sweetly.

'Mrs. Neely, that is very unusual. How old are you?'

'Ninety-eight.' she replied.

'Oh, Mrs. Neely, would you please come down in front & tell us all how a person can live ninety-eight years & not have an enemy in the world?'
The little sweetheart of a lady tottered down the aisle,
faced the congregation, and said:





'I outlived the bitches.'

Thursday, April 3, 2008

Good Things Happen to Nice People....

Or do they? Fair warning, this blog entry is only intended to help me free some fire from my soul. The hatred I have for my roommate .. or should I say ex-roommate is intensly growing.. and I'm afraid of losing my mind.

First, let me start by saying... I don't know anyone who has met the girl and has actually liked her.. Other than ME. I tend to try and look for the good in people.. and focus only on the positive. For an entire year .. the girl did nothing but complain about no one liking her, complain about my married friends.. saying "marriage is bullshit.. I've been there and its only going to end in divorce".. and talking crap about people who get wrapped up in love. For an entire year.. I faught with my friends and boyfriends and begged them to give her chance after chance because she really was a great girl. I took a bullet for this girl.. if a bullet were hurtful words.

She met a guy in November or December.. not sure of the exact date. I think the guy is fantastic.. I was very happy for her. I extended my open arms to her boyfriend and allowed him to go everywhere with us... since I knew she had fallen for him. One day we got into a fight because I invited her out and she said she "couldn't go" because he was sick.. I knew then she was wrapped up in it (like she used to swear about just 2 months before she met him).. I gave her the truth and said.. the fact of the matter is that your "wrapped up in it".. we faught and went our separate ways for a month or so. Finally after a month.. she texted me to ask about my dog. I assumed she texted me because she had finally gotten over our fight. So, we talked a bit and I apologized a ridiculous amount of times... I thought we were cool. I came home last tuesday and she had "moved out". Without giving me any kind of warning.. she had taken the entire living room .. (which was hers).. but I thought we had been robbed. A simple.. "hey, I'm taking my shit" would had been proper I think... this girl even locked her bedroom door.. as if I were going to steal something from her..

Here is my real question.. this girl is a bitch. Straight up!! She disrespects people and doesn't give a fuck about anything unless it involves her getting something out of it.

So tell me.. I'm a caring .. giving person. I do what i can for my friends and my family and give all I have to give. This girl is actually "engaged". How is that possible? I've been waiting patiently for the right guy to just come prancing into my life.. I've dated and I've been fucked over.. yet, this bitch is now engaged. My parents say "life isn't fair".. but when does anything actually happen FOR ME? Should I start being an asshole to get something good for myself? Should I be selfish and not give a shit about anyone to protect my own feelings?

I'm mad

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Pretty good WIERD soup!!!!


Ingredients

1 tablespoon olive oil
1 large onion, chopped (about 2 cups)
2 cups chopped cabbage (to save time, use packaged slaw mix)
3 to 4 cloves garlic, minced
1 18-ounce can sweet potatoes, drained and chopped
1 14 1/2-ounce can tomato wedges or diced tomatoes, undrained
1 1/2 cups tomato juice
3/4 cup apple juice
1 to 2 teaspoons grated fresh ginger root
1/4 to 1/2 teaspoon red pepper flakes
2 cups frozen cut green beans
1/3 cup natural peanutbutter
Directions


Heal oil in a large skillet over medium-high heat.
Add onion; Cook, stirring, until tender, about 5 minutes.
Mix in cabbage and garlic; Cook, stirring, until cabbage is tender-crisp, about 5 minutes.
Stir in sweet potatoes, tomatoes, tomato juice, apple juice, ginger, and red pepper flakes.
Reduce heat to medium-low; Cover.
Simmer until hot and bubbling, about 6 minutes.
Stir in green beans and simmer, uncovered, for 5 minutes.
Stir in peanut butter until well blended and hot, about 1 minute.
Serve stew with crusty bread and a salad, or spoon it over rice or mashed potatoes.
Comments
Per Serving:
261 Calories; 8g Protein; 9g Fat; 40g Carbohydrates; 0 Cholesterol; 425mg Sodium; 8g Fiber.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

I love Hillary Clinton no matter what they say!!!!!

5 Passengers, 4 Parachutes




An airplane was about to crash. There were 5 passengers on board, but
only
4 parachutes.





The 1st passenger said, "I am Kobe Bryant, the best NBA basketball
player.
The Lakers need me and I can't afford to die" . So he took the 1st
pack
and left the plane.





The 2nd passenger, Hillary Clinton said, "I am the wife of a former U.S.
President, a NY State Senator and a potential future president, and I am
the
smartest woman in American history, so America's people don't want me to
die. She took the 2nd pack and jumped out of the plane.





The 3rd passenger, Ted Kennedy said, "I am a US Senator, the Democratic
Party needs me and my liver still has some good years left". So he
grabbed
the pack next to him and jumped.





The 4th passenger, Billy Graham, said to the 5th passenger, a 10 year
old
schoolgirl. "I am old and frail and don't have many years left, and as
a
Christian I will sacrifice my l ife and let you have the last pa
rachute."





The girl said, "That's okay, there's a parachute left for you.
America's
smartest woman took my school bag.

Friday, March 14, 2008

L O S T ..... literally




It was so sad.... and I totally don't get it. He was rushing to the hospital for someone else's baby? I'm so confused.. when will the madness make sense?

Thursday, March 13, 2008

NO FUCKING WAY!!!!!

Ok.. so if you haven't read this ridiculous story already.. here it is......

Woman sits on boyfriend's toilet for 2 years
Girlfriend was physically stuck to the seat — her skin had grown around it


NESS CITY, Kan. - Deputies said a woman in western Kansas sat on her boyfriend's toilet for two years, and they're investigating whether she was mistreated.

Ness County Sheriff Bryan Whipple said a man called his office last month to report that something was wrong with his girlfriend.

Whipple said it appeared the 35-year-old Ness City woman’s skin had grown around the seat. She initially refused emergency medical services but was finally convinced by responders and her boyfriend that she needed to be checked out at a hospital.

“We pried the toilet seat off with a pry bar and the seat went with her to the hospital,” Whipple said. “The hospital removed it.”

Whipple said investigators planned to present their report Wednesday to the county attorney, who will determine whether any charges should be filed against the woman's 36-year-old boyfriend.

“She was not glued. She was not tied. She was just physically stuck by her body,” Whipple said. “It is hard to imagine. ... I still have a hard time imagining it myself.”

He told investigators he brought his girlfriend food and water, and asked her every day to come out of the bathroom.

“And her reply would be, ‘Maybe tomorrow,”’ Whipple said. “According to him, she did not want to leave the bathroom.”

The boyfriend called police on Feb. 27 to report that “there was something wrong with his girlfriend,” Whipple said, adding that he never explained why it took him two years to call.

Police found the clothed woman sitting on the toilet, her sweat pants down to her mid-thigh. She was “somewhat disoriented,” and her legs looked like they had atrophied, Whipple said.

“She said that she didn’t need any help, that she was OK and did not want to leave,” he said.

She was taken to a hospital in Wichita, about 150 miles southeast of Ness City. Whipple said she has refused to cooperate with medical providers or law enforcement investigators.

Authorities said they did not know if she was mentally or physically disabled.

Police have declined to release the couple’s names, but the house where authorities say the incident happened is listed in public records as the residence of Kory McFarren. No one answered his home phone number.

The case has been the buzz in Ness City, said James Ellis, a neighbor.
“I don’t think anybody can make any sense out of it,” he said.

Ellis said he had known the woman since she was a child but that he had not seen her for at least six years.

He said she had a tough childhood after her mother died at a young age and apparently was usually kept inside the house as she grew up. At one time the woman worked for a long-term care facility, he said, but he did not know what kind of work she did there.

“It really doesn’t surprise me,” Ellis said of the bathroom incident. “What surprises me is somebody wasn’t called in a bit earlier.”

Copyright 2008 The Associated Press. All rights reserved. This material may not be published, broadcast, rewritten or redistributed.




OK.. so, I completely don't believe this story. Number 1) She is a WOMAN.. women don't ever want to sit on the toilet for more than say... 10 min. (or whatevers necessary).. that is a man's job to read and relax. 2) No way is she going to have her panties around her "mid-thighs" that long.. she would have at least flushed, gotten up and dressed and sat back down to lock herself in the bathroom.(typically when I do that I sit with my back to the door so I can hear someone outside giving a crap about me being upset 3) How can they charge her boyfriend with neglect.. he fed her and gave her water and kept her alive.. That was one whipped man.. scared to "force" her out of the bathroom.. that takes it to a whole new level of "giving her .. her way" They want to question whether this woman was physically or mentally ill... UM, SHE SAT ON a toilet for 2 years.. her Fucking Skin grew around it.. GROSS.. I believe there is some definite issue going on there. However, until I see results of her ASS actually growing around a toilet.. this is a SCAM.. sounds like something David Blain sp? would try to attempt..
I can see it.. Headline.. David Blain attempts to sit on a toilet seat for 2 years AND 2 MONTHSSSSSS...
I'm highly upset about this though.. 1st off.. I never hear stories about Kuwait anymore..I want to know what is going on with my sister.. and your telling me a lady who "chose" to sit on the toilet for 2 years is making headlines.. man we must be bored..

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Vet Visit

Ok..so I took Charlie to his 1st Vet appointment. Everything went really well.. Vet says hes in tip top shape.. no diseases.. no problems.. . but there is 1 thing I'm really upset about. The dog has the sharpest teeth.. like a parauna.. and he likes to jump and bite (not harmful but playful). So.. I was just "assuming" that he was going to loose those little sharp teeth and grow some real MANLY DOG teeth. Vet opens his mouth and says.. well.. hes doing well he only has a couple more baby teeth to lose. SHOCKED... WHAT? YOUR SERIOUS? Those are his adult teeth? NO NO NO... You don't understand Doc.. they are sharp like thorns.. I get a giggle from the vet and a .. "just expect him to lose only 1 or 2 more teeth.. the fang teeth" Like.. its cool the dog can eat you alive while your trying to sleep. I can't discipline him yet, hes too cute. What do I do?

Saturday, March 8, 2008

To Danielle

Happy Birthday and RIP

Friday, March 7, 2008

Charlie Reu




I got him yesterday. He's a 4 1/2 month old brussels griffon.

:)

Thursday, March 6, 2008

I Updated My Blog

Yeah so .. here it is.

Check out Shia's package.. um, whoa where did that come from. Your probably also wondering what's up with the parental controls.. I figure just incase

Keep posted.. I'm going to try and keep up with this site regularly now

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

The Circus

I can't WAIT!!!

It's my Valentine's Day Date with Dave.

YAY.

We have front row VIP seats. Cross your fingers I don't get ran over by an elephant or eaten by a tiger.

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