Kevin is my ex. We dated 3.5 years and lived together 1.5 of those years. When we met, it was a fairytale relationship.. we were obsessed with each other. We were the type of love where your out in public and your so busy staring in each other's eyes that the people around you disappear.
Moving in together ruined us. We faught all the time and I became a mother more than a girlfriend. Not only that, I wanted to get engaged and he didn't. I figured 3.5 years.. damn, how long are we supposed to wait. Well, around NOV. of last year, Kevin and I had been fighting more than ever. I came home one day to be packing my stuff and moving out. (He wanted to move out, but there was no way for me to afford the place on my own.. so I moved back to my moms). Well, I was REALLY heartbroken.. I couldn't eat, couldn't sleep.. but Kevin made it ALL BETTER when he decided he wanted to continue dating. I figured.. at least I still have him. Well, this went on for about 6 months.. and it started getting serious again. We took vacations to his moms house in NC.. we were saying I love you.. and we were back together.. or so I thought. Well, one day we got into a fight over one of his "girlfriends" because he had went out with her all night and supposedly conveinantly left his phone on his truck overnight... well, being the "supposed" girlfriend I was I got upset. This was around July 5th I think.. it was the same week my grandmother passed away and my sister shipped out for her deployment.. lets just say it was one of the worst days of my life. Either way.. this guy just STOPPED talking to me.. ignored my calls etc. He finally had the nerve to break up with me over TEXT. Ignorant.. YES!!!
So, my question is.. When does it end? When does the pain go away.. I was SO in love and I just feel so crushed. I've met new guys.. like Thomas my fireman and some others.. and they help at the time.. but I just feel so "lost". Everything reminds me of him.. smells, food, clothes he bought me, songs, movies.. even some qualities Thomas has. Is there anything I can do to speed up this healing process? Seriously?
I need some help... because I'm tired of loving him.
Monday, September 24, 2007
Friday, September 21, 2007
I said NO to the Breadstick
Why are some people really skinny and others are just damned overweight? Wait... Metabolism, that's right. So, my boss .. who is in her 40's - has a beautiful house, beautiful kids, rich boyfriends and yes.. she is like 5 '10 and a size 8. This woman sits directly across from me and she eats non-stop all day long... This is her day.. Breakfast - Mcdonalds or Arbys - Snack - Doritos and dip or chips and salsa - Lunch - steak subs, pizzas, speghetti, whatever she orders.. and then snacking later - she eats ice cream, cookies, more chips, etc. Then, she follows all of this down with soda.. and not the diet stuff.
How do I deal with the enemy? Yesterday, she was so kind as to offer me a breadstick. HOW NICE OF HER.. aaghh..
I turned it down though.. yes!
How do I deal with the enemy? Yesterday, she was so kind as to offer me a breadstick. HOW NICE OF HER.. aaghh..
I turned it down though.. yes!
Thursday, September 20, 2007
I'm a Poser.
1. How old will you be in five years? 31
2. Who did you spend at least two hours with today? My boss
3. How tall are you? 5'1”
4. What do you look forward to most in the next six weeks? Losing weight
5. What's the last movie you saw in theaters? I am Mclovin! "super bad"
6. Who was the last person you called? My mom
7. Who was the last person to call you? Thomas
8. What was the last text message you received? from Sarah.. too long and inside jokeish
9. Who was the last person to leave you a voicemail? Thomas
10. Would you rather call or text? Text
11. Are you going to give out your cell number here? right here? no.. on the site.. maybe who knows
12. Are your parents married/separated/divorced? Married
13. When is the last time you saw your mom? 2 days ago
14. When is the last time you saw your dad? 2 days ago
15. Have you ever been to a concert? yep
16. What are you wearing right now? jeans, sweatshirt (they keep it at like 65 in the office)
18. Where is your favorite place to be? Beach, WV, couch, bed
19. Where is your least favorite place to be? work
20. Africa-New Zealand-Japan? don't know.. never been to any
21. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years? married and kids
22. Do you tan or burn? Tan
23. What did you fear as a child? my attick
24. What was the last thing that really made you laugh? Sarahs texts
25. How many TV's do you have in your house? 3
26. How big is your bed? Full
27. Do you have a laptop or desktop computer? desktop
28. Do you sleep with or without clothes on? Usually
29. What color are your sheets? light green and jersey knit (best EVER)
30. How many pillows do you sleep with? 2
31. what is your favorite season? Spring
32. What do you like about fall? Smells, atmosphere, Halloween, Thanksgiving
33. What do you like about winter? Hot chocolate, pots of chili, days off of work, doing the hammer dance on my balcony when it is icey, blankets and movies... snowed in
34. What do you like about the summer? tank tops, warm nights, summer breeze, marguaritas, flip flops / sandals, the beach, tans
35. What do you like about spring? My birthday, flowers blooming, being able to have the windows open, fresh air, long sleeves - short sleeves, first pair of capris and flip flops
45. What instant messenger service do you use? I don’t
46. How is your hair currently? pony tail
47. Are you wearing shoes? unfortunately
48. How many glasses of water, a day, do you drink on average? Usually none, but I've started dieting so about 8 - 10 per day
49. What do you drink in the morning? hot tea or water
50. Do you eat breakfast? yes, every morning
51. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed? yes.. the one closest to the door
52. Do you know how to play poker? Yes
53. Do you like to cuddle? sometimes.. unless I'm sweaty then no
54. Do you like hugs or kisses? yep.. I love kissing especially.
55. Favorite TV show? Lost
56. Do you eat dinner out or at home more often? At home
57. What’s your favorite restaurant? Ruby Tuesdays or Carlos O Kellys
58. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you? Yes.
59. Do you want kids? Yes.
60. Have you ever been to a live television show taping? yes
61. Have you ever gotten stitches? Yes.
62. Have you ever ridden in a fire truck? Nope but I've ridden a fireman does that count LOL (sorry for the graphic nature, but I couldn't resist)
63. Do you prefer the ocean or a pool? pool by the ocean
64. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seat? aisle.. I get sick with the window seat
65. Do you know how to drive a stick? yes
66. What is your favorite thing to spend money on? clothes and food
67. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7? yes.. my diamond earrings
68. Do you wish on 11:11? sometimes..
69. Do you get easily embarrassed? not really
71. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? no.. not enough room
72. What is the main ring tone on your phone? Can't touch this.. MC Hammer
73. Do you still have clothes from when you were little? my mom has my very 1st outfit.. aww.. and my daughter will be wearing that very first outfit when she is born in 2045.
74. What orange object is closest to you right now? scissors
75. Do you turn off the water while you brush your teeth? yes.. I'm usually walking around the kitchen or getting stuff in order for work or bed or wherever I'm going
76. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? open usually.. it is sometimes too full to close it lol.
77. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of bees? big bear. it would be quick and easy
78. Do you have a car? yep
79. Are you driving? Right now? yes.. right now I've taken my desktop computer with me on a road trip. Of course not
80. Do you pump your own gas? Yes
81. Can you change the oil on a car? No
82. Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket? no
83. Have you ever ran out of gas while in a car? Yes.. but to be fair, I was parking.
84. What is your usual bedtime? 11:30 - 12:30
85. What was the last book you read? none.. I hate reading
86. Do you read the newspaper? yes.. online though
87. Do you read magazines? Yes.
89. What do you fear most? being alone and never having a family
90. Do you dance in the car? yes sometimes
91. What radio station did you last listen to? B101.5
92. Who is in the picture frame closest to you? don't have a picture frame closest to me.. but, the closest picture is my best friend shannon's daughter Kendall
93. What was the last note you scribbled on a piece of paper? calories of something
94. What is your favorite candle scent? I have 2 - Grapefruit and fresh linen
95. What is your favorite board game? Scattegories
96. What school are you going to and when does it start? no school for me. I should go back though
97. What is your most missed memory in middle school and or high school? parties and school lunch.. yum
98. Who was your favorite teacher in middle/high school? Ms. Blalock. She cracked me up
99. What is the longest you have ever camped out in a tent? 2 days
100. Who was the last person to give you butterflies? My fireman.. yep, last night.. STrange.
2. Who did you spend at least two hours with today? My boss
3. How tall are you? 5'1”
4. What do you look forward to most in the next six weeks? Losing weight
5. What's the last movie you saw in theaters? I am Mclovin! "super bad"
6. Who was the last person you called? My mom
7. Who was the last person to call you? Thomas
8. What was the last text message you received? from Sarah.. too long and inside jokeish
9. Who was the last person to leave you a voicemail? Thomas
10. Would you rather call or text? Text
11. Are you going to give out your cell number here? right here? no.. on the site.. maybe who knows
12. Are your parents married/separated/divorced? Married
13. When is the last time you saw your mom? 2 days ago
14. When is the last time you saw your dad? 2 days ago
15. Have you ever been to a concert? yep
16. What are you wearing right now? jeans, sweatshirt (they keep it at like 65 in the office)
18. Where is your favorite place to be? Beach, WV, couch, bed
19. Where is your least favorite place to be? work
20. Africa-New Zealand-Japan? don't know.. never been to any
21. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years? married and kids
22. Do you tan or burn? Tan
23. What did you fear as a child? my attick
24. What was the last thing that really made you laugh? Sarahs texts
25. How many TV's do you have in your house? 3
26. How big is your bed? Full
27. Do you have a laptop or desktop computer? desktop
28. Do you sleep with or without clothes on? Usually
29. What color are your sheets? light green and jersey knit (best EVER)
30. How many pillows do you sleep with? 2
31. what is your favorite season? Spring
32. What do you like about fall? Smells, atmosphere, Halloween, Thanksgiving
33. What do you like about winter? Hot chocolate, pots of chili, days off of work, doing the hammer dance on my balcony when it is icey, blankets and movies... snowed in
34. What do you like about the summer? tank tops, warm nights, summer breeze, marguaritas, flip flops / sandals, the beach, tans
35. What do you like about spring? My birthday, flowers blooming, being able to have the windows open, fresh air, long sleeves - short sleeves, first pair of capris and flip flops
45. What instant messenger service do you use? I don’t
46. How is your hair currently? pony tail
47. Are you wearing shoes? unfortunately
48. How many glasses of water, a day, do you drink on average? Usually none, but I've started dieting so about 8 - 10 per day
49. What do you drink in the morning? hot tea or water
50. Do you eat breakfast? yes, every morning
51. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed? yes.. the one closest to the door
52. Do you know how to play poker? Yes
53. Do you like to cuddle? sometimes.. unless I'm sweaty then no
54. Do you like hugs or kisses? yep.. I love kissing especially.
55. Favorite TV show? Lost
56. Do you eat dinner out or at home more often? At home
57. What’s your favorite restaurant? Ruby Tuesdays or Carlos O Kellys
58. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you? Yes.
59. Do you want kids? Yes.
60. Have you ever been to a live television show taping? yes
61. Have you ever gotten stitches? Yes.
62. Have you ever ridden in a fire truck? Nope but I've ridden a fireman does that count LOL (sorry for the graphic nature, but I couldn't resist)
63. Do you prefer the ocean or a pool? pool by the ocean
64. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seat? aisle.. I get sick with the window seat
65. Do you know how to drive a stick? yes
66. What is your favorite thing to spend money on? clothes and food
67. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7? yes.. my diamond earrings
68. Do you wish on 11:11? sometimes..
69. Do you get easily embarrassed? not really
71. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? no.. not enough room
72. What is the main ring tone on your phone? Can't touch this.. MC Hammer
73. Do you still have clothes from when you were little? my mom has my very 1st outfit.. aww.. and my daughter will be wearing that very first outfit when she is born in 2045.
74. What orange object is closest to you right now? scissors
75. Do you turn off the water while you brush your teeth? yes.. I'm usually walking around the kitchen or getting stuff in order for work or bed or wherever I'm going
76. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? open usually.. it is sometimes too full to close it lol.
77. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of bees? big bear. it would be quick and easy
78. Do you have a car? yep
79. Are you driving? Right now? yes.. right now I've taken my desktop computer with me on a road trip. Of course not
80. Do you pump your own gas? Yes
81. Can you change the oil on a car? No
82. Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket? no
83. Have you ever ran out of gas while in a car? Yes.. but to be fair, I was parking.
84. What is your usual bedtime? 11:30 - 12:30
85. What was the last book you read? none.. I hate reading
86. Do you read the newspaper? yes.. online though
87. Do you read magazines? Yes.
89. What do you fear most? being alone and never having a family
90. Do you dance in the car? yes sometimes
91. What radio station did you last listen to? B101.5
92. Who is in the picture frame closest to you? don't have a picture frame closest to me.. but, the closest picture is my best friend shannon's daughter Kendall
93. What was the last note you scribbled on a piece of paper? calories of something
94. What is your favorite candle scent? I have 2 - Grapefruit and fresh linen
95. What is your favorite board game? Scattegories
96. What school are you going to and when does it start? no school for me. I should go back though
97. What is your most missed memory in middle school and or high school? parties and school lunch.. yum
98. Who was your favorite teacher in middle/high school? Ms. Blalock. She cracked me up
99. What is the longest you have ever camped out in a tent? 2 days
100. Who was the last person to give you butterflies? My fireman.. yep, last night.. STrange.
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
FRIENDS
I want to dedicate this post to my world of friends. Each of them are different and have helped me through hard times.
I'll start with Terri - who has been my friend the longest. This girl and I met at a bus stop in 1st grade. We have remained best friends through everything. I moved when I was 15 years old.. 6 hours away from this girl and we are still best friends. I visit her about 3 or 4 times a year. (Really, I just use WV as my vacation spot). Either way, Terri is the type of friend where we can sit in a room quietly watching a movie.. not having to say a word and it is by far the most peaceful time. We are complete opposites but yet we are soul mates. I miss her dearly everyday.
Next - I'll move on to Roxanna... (since I met her first Shannon). Roxanna was one of my first friends when moving to Fredericksburg. We had math and P.E. together. I remember a lot about Roxanna.. like, I always thought it was completely strange that she shaved the bottom of her head ... but getting to know her better.. I understood that the girl just has too much damn hair. I know that when Roxanna is unhappy.. she will walk her ass home! LOL!!! I also have come to realize that this is Roxanna's strong point - she ain't puttin up with no BULL. Roxanna is supportive in everything I've done. She leads me in the right direction by telling me the truth.. like, Jenn.. I hate that outfit. I also love Roxanna's independence and ability to drive us around DC and make crazy plans for us. (DC Party Bus is all I have to say about that). She has fantastic sense of style and is AWESOME with putting on makeup. She helped me a lot during my breakup by taking me places.. and having cute boys dance on me:) She is a best friend for sure.
Shannon - Shannon is the mother of us all. I like talking to Shannon because she is comforting to me. She always has something positive to say about everything. (even if she isn't feeling so great herself). She is caring and compassionate and absolutely loves her friends. I trust her dearly and her opinions on boys.. lol. Shannon and I go way back to Nelly in the truck going diggin.. to shoving leaves down her throat on her birthday. LOL. Shannon is shy and innocent (but completely NOT)... but it amazes me how much she loves her family and her friends. I know that Shannon will always be there for me.. no matter what I've done. She has talked me through some dangerous and crazy shit I've done.. and Shannon was there for most of my regrets and we are able to laugh about this together. She is a best friend for sure.
Cindy - Cindy is my crazy friend. Yep, you heard me.. my crazy friend. Cindy is the friend who is ALWAYS up for anything. I could call her at 1 am (only on a weekend) and say.. Cindy, Iwant to go visit whoever.. and she will say.. ok, you driving or am I? lol. She is the most honest friend I have.. if she doesn't like it.. she makes sure that you know it. If you said it wrong.. she makes sure you know it.. but that is an AWESOME quality to have because I know she is going to set me straight. Cindy and I haven't known each other as long as the other ladies .. but we are growing closer each day.. we have shared a lot with each other.. mostly complaining about boys.. but, hey.. if you don't complain about boys.. what are you going to complain about.
Cindy is a best friend for sure.
Last but not least SARAH - my roomy. Sarah and i have really only been friends for about a year. I met Sarah through my ex - she dated his brother and I dated him. We had a rocky start to our relationship because we moved in together before we really knew each other... but, I think we have really began to work out the kinks. Sarah is the best friend to bitch with... because no matter if shes pissed or not.. she will give you heart when your bitching. She will be pissed at the guy even if it involved her or not. She is a true fighter for her friends. Also, Sarah and i share the same love for food, movies, beer, and boys.. so it is tons of fun sometimes.
Sarah is a best friend for sure.
Well ladies.. you have stolen the spotlight for today.. so don't expect it tomorrow :)
I love you guys.. and wouldn't be myself without you.
I'll start with Terri - who has been my friend the longest. This girl and I met at a bus stop in 1st grade. We have remained best friends through everything. I moved when I was 15 years old.. 6 hours away from this girl and we are still best friends. I visit her about 3 or 4 times a year. (Really, I just use WV as my vacation spot). Either way, Terri is the type of friend where we can sit in a room quietly watching a movie.. not having to say a word and it is by far the most peaceful time. We are complete opposites but yet we are soul mates. I miss her dearly everyday.
Next - I'll move on to Roxanna... (since I met her first Shannon). Roxanna was one of my first friends when moving to Fredericksburg. We had math and P.E. together. I remember a lot about Roxanna.. like, I always thought it was completely strange that she shaved the bottom of her head ... but getting to know her better.. I understood that the girl just has too much damn hair. I know that when Roxanna is unhappy.. she will walk her ass home! LOL!!! I also have come to realize that this is Roxanna's strong point - she ain't puttin up with no BULL. Roxanna is supportive in everything I've done. She leads me in the right direction by telling me the truth.. like, Jenn.. I hate that outfit. I also love Roxanna's independence and ability to drive us around DC and make crazy plans for us. (DC Party Bus is all I have to say about that). She has fantastic sense of style and is AWESOME with putting on makeup. She helped me a lot during my breakup by taking me places.. and having cute boys dance on me:) She is a best friend for sure.
Shannon - Shannon is the mother of us all. I like talking to Shannon because she is comforting to me. She always has something positive to say about everything. (even if she isn't feeling so great herself). She is caring and compassionate and absolutely loves her friends. I trust her dearly and her opinions on boys.. lol. Shannon and I go way back to Nelly in the truck going diggin.. to shoving leaves down her throat on her birthday. LOL. Shannon is shy and innocent (but completely NOT)... but it amazes me how much she loves her family and her friends. I know that Shannon will always be there for me.. no matter what I've done. She has talked me through some dangerous and crazy shit I've done.. and Shannon was there for most of my regrets and we are able to laugh about this together. She is a best friend for sure.
Cindy - Cindy is my crazy friend. Yep, you heard me.. my crazy friend. Cindy is the friend who is ALWAYS up for anything. I could call her at 1 am (only on a weekend) and say.. Cindy, Iwant to go visit whoever.. and she will say.. ok, you driving or am I? lol. She is the most honest friend I have.. if she doesn't like it.. she makes sure that you know it. If you said it wrong.. she makes sure you know it.. but that is an AWESOME quality to have because I know she is going to set me straight. Cindy and I haven't known each other as long as the other ladies .. but we are growing closer each day.. we have shared a lot with each other.. mostly complaining about boys.. but, hey.. if you don't complain about boys.. what are you going to complain about.
Cindy is a best friend for sure.
Last but not least SARAH - my roomy. Sarah and i have really only been friends for about a year. I met Sarah through my ex - she dated his brother and I dated him. We had a rocky start to our relationship because we moved in together before we really knew each other... but, I think we have really began to work out the kinks. Sarah is the best friend to bitch with... because no matter if shes pissed or not.. she will give you heart when your bitching. She will be pissed at the guy even if it involved her or not. She is a true fighter for her friends. Also, Sarah and i share the same love for food, movies, beer, and boys.. so it is tons of fun sometimes.
Sarah is a best friend for sure.
Well ladies.. you have stolen the spotlight for today.. so don't expect it tomorrow :)
I love you guys.. and wouldn't be myself without you.
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
I'm better now
SO... everything worked out in my favor reguarding my insurance delay.
I got my birth control and I owe the Dr.s office absolutely nothing. Some person forgot to do their job and leave a note on the computer that said "paid in full".
I joined jazzercise last night. My friend Cindy and I bonded back in the day by going to jazzercise together... and she has been going since February and she looks fantastic. She's been bugging me and bugging me to come back.. so I'M BACK :) Most people view jazzercise as "old lady workouts". Let me tell you... YOUR WRONG! I love jazzercise because it is mostly women. (you will see a husband drug to the class maybe 1 time a week). I also love the music and the routines are FUN! I sweat so bad that it looks like I jumped in a pool. They also offer other classes, like step and sculpting. If your a woman looking to get in shape.... I recommend at least 1 class... give it a try.
Tonight is biggest loser FredVegas. I'm psyched. I have a few things to share with the ladies.. such as some really neato websites I've found.. and my love for jazzercise.
Either way.. it has began!!!!
I got my birth control and I owe the Dr.s office absolutely nothing. Some person forgot to do their job and leave a note on the computer that said "paid in full".
I joined jazzercise last night. My friend Cindy and I bonded back in the day by going to jazzercise together... and she has been going since February and she looks fantastic. She's been bugging me and bugging me to come back.. so I'M BACK :) Most people view jazzercise as "old lady workouts". Let me tell you... YOUR WRONG! I love jazzercise because it is mostly women. (you will see a husband drug to the class maybe 1 time a week). I also love the music and the routines are FUN! I sweat so bad that it looks like I jumped in a pool. They also offer other classes, like step and sculpting. If your a woman looking to get in shape.... I recommend at least 1 class... give it a try.
Tonight is biggest loser FredVegas. I'm psyched. I have a few things to share with the ladies.. such as some really neato websites I've found.. and my love for jazzercise.
Either way.. it has began!!!!
Monday, September 17, 2007
Ugh I hate it
I'm so pissed right now. So, I went to go and refill my birth control yesterday and yeah.. they wouldn't let me because it has been over a year. How I completely forgot about the most horrible Dr. visit ever?? I don't know.. slipped my mind.
Well, back a year ago I had a really shitty insurance company who said they covered 100% of all routine visits, yet I received a bill for about $400.00. There was a huge battle over them paying it.. not paying it.. etc. So, it got to a point where the Dr.'s office got a lawyer involved. The lawyer sent me a letter and a letter to my insurance company. The insurance company paid (some of most) of the bill but only after being threatened. I then received a letter in the mail saying how it had been paid and everything had been dropped. At this point, I assumed that everything was up to par.
Today, I call the Dr.'s office to get a months prescription fill (you know, so that I don't get pregnant or that my hormones don't rage out of control and to keep the cycle normal) and she says to me.. sorry Jenn, we can't do anything with this until you call the collections office and pay off or at least set up a payment plan of the remainder of your bill. What fucking remainder of my bill? Why is the healthcare system so fucked up that I can't get a months prescription for birth control (because I'm being responsible) and set up an appointment and just pay the damn remainder of this bill at my appointment?
It just feels to me that they are holding my health above my head in order to get me to pay the remainder of a bill I thought was already paid. I don't even know how much I owe??? I'm so confused.
Is there anything I can do? Our Free Clinics suck in Fredericksburg... ugh.
I'm pissed!
Well, back a year ago I had a really shitty insurance company who said they covered 100% of all routine visits, yet I received a bill for about $400.00. There was a huge battle over them paying it.. not paying it.. etc. So, it got to a point where the Dr.'s office got a lawyer involved. The lawyer sent me a letter and a letter to my insurance company. The insurance company paid (some of most) of the bill but only after being threatened. I then received a letter in the mail saying how it had been paid and everything had been dropped. At this point, I assumed that everything was up to par.
Today, I call the Dr.'s office to get a months prescription fill (you know, so that I don't get pregnant or that my hormones don't rage out of control and to keep the cycle normal) and she says to me.. sorry Jenn, we can't do anything with this until you call the collections office and pay off or at least set up a payment plan of the remainder of your bill. What fucking remainder of my bill? Why is the healthcare system so fucked up that I can't get a months prescription for birth control (because I'm being responsible) and set up an appointment and just pay the damn remainder of this bill at my appointment?
It just feels to me that they are holding my health above my head in order to get me to pay the remainder of a bill I thought was already paid. I don't even know how much I owe??? I'm so confused.
Is there anything I can do? Our Free Clinics suck in Fredericksburg... ugh.
I'm pissed!
Friday, September 14, 2007
WHAT & HOW
Thomas The Fireman.. is a guy I met online. Yes, I've never done it before.. but I couldn't pass it up. I was on myspace one day probably leaving one of my friends some ridiculous comment, or possibly mystalking my ex boyfriend. (I like to see if he has any girls leave him comments, yep it is ridiculous). Anyhow, I get an email from this darling looking guy who looks like loads of fun. He has a truck, a motorcycle (Harley), a boat, a snake, friends, etc. The sexiest part of him, he's a fireman... yum! So, the email reads simple... "Hi there, I'm Thomas I'm from Stafford. What do you like to do for fun around here" etc. He was sweet too. So, I emailed him a few times and invited him to the movies on a double date with the roommate. We met and we got along and he was very attractive. So, to shorten this up.. we have been talking now for about 3 weeks maybe? We get along great and spend a bit of time together.
So, to the point..
WHAT and HOW?
What do I want from him? Well, I think I want a boyfriend.. but I'm not really at the point to mark my myspace as "in a relationship" status.
I do want to only hang out with him. I do want to see him all of the time. I do think of him everyday. I do talk to him on the phone everyday.
So.. the How?
How do I ask him what he wants out of this, without looking stupid?
I'm terrified. I'm scared he wants to be my boyfriend, because I'm not quite sure if I'm ready. I'm scared he will say.. "nothing, we are just hanging out" because then it is going to make me feel like I like him more than he likes me.
So.. what do I do? Let it be and see where it goes? I thought about that.. but I'm concerned that it would just continue on how it is.. and I would never be sure of where we stand.
Is it ok to be confused and not know what you want?
So, to the point..
WHAT and HOW?
What do I want from him? Well, I think I want a boyfriend.. but I'm not really at the point to mark my myspace as "in a relationship" status.
I do want to only hang out with him. I do want to see him all of the time. I do think of him everyday. I do talk to him on the phone everyday.
So.. the How?
How do I ask him what he wants out of this, without looking stupid?
I'm terrified. I'm scared he wants to be my boyfriend, because I'm not quite sure if I'm ready. I'm scared he will say.. "nothing, we are just hanging out" because then it is going to make me feel like I like him more than he likes me.
So.. what do I do? Let it be and see where it goes? I thought about that.. but I'm concerned that it would just continue on how it is.. and I would never be sure of where we stand.
Is it ok to be confused and not know what you want?
Thursday, September 13, 2007
It's my first time... ooh
This is my very first blog. Yep, I have no idea what I'm doing but hey.. I'm going to give it a shot.
I have joined the blog spot for 2 reasons...
1. I am so bored at work and they cut off my myspace.
2. I am going to be joining The Biggest Loser FredVegas... and I need a blog account to share my thoughts, ideas, and recipes...
So, even though I joined for only these 2 reasons, I'm not going to half ass. I'm going to give my blog readers interesting things to read.. and give myself interesting shit to do :)
So, here goes..
My name is Jennifer, but I go by Jenn. I am 26 years old. Born and mostly raised in Charleston, WV. (15 years) and moved to Virginia and have lived here since.
I have 0 boyfriends, 0 husbands, 0 ex-husbands, 0 children, 0 pets, and 1 roommate. So, you think my life would be completely boring? Nah.. not at all. I'm sure in future blogs, you will be cracking up at some of the stuff I do to occupy my time. Oh, and I'm not shy... I will share everything... with you.. and I do mean everything. I pay attention to detail.
So, to give you some ideas of what I'll be moaning and groaning about...
I am on my 5th day of no smoking. I have been a smoker since the age of 18. So that is 8 years, and wow they have gone by fast. I've quit and started and quit and started, just like every smoker out there. You know it is horrible for you, but you do it anyways. You wish you would have never started, but it is too late. Well, it is NOT too late for me. I'm done, put a fork in me!
Also, I am dieting and starting to exercise more. Ex-smokers tend to gain about 10 lbs when they quit smoking, I would prefer to not. So, I am going to mostly watch my calories and stick to exercising at least 4 times a week, moderate to vigorous 30 minutes - 1 hour.
So, I'm going to be a complete bitch to say the least :)
Sorry to all my friends who are going to have to come in contact with me during the next 8 weeks or however long it may take.
I have joined the blog spot for 2 reasons...
1. I am so bored at work and they cut off my myspace.
2. I am going to be joining The Biggest Loser FredVegas... and I need a blog account to share my thoughts, ideas, and recipes...
So, even though I joined for only these 2 reasons, I'm not going to half ass. I'm going to give my blog readers interesting things to read.. and give myself interesting shit to do :)
So, here goes..
My name is Jennifer, but I go by Jenn. I am 26 years old. Born and mostly raised in Charleston, WV. (15 years) and moved to Virginia and have lived here since.
I have 0 boyfriends, 0 husbands, 0 ex-husbands, 0 children, 0 pets, and 1 roommate. So, you think my life would be completely boring? Nah.. not at all. I'm sure in future blogs, you will be cracking up at some of the stuff I do to occupy my time. Oh, and I'm not shy... I will share everything... with you.. and I do mean everything. I pay attention to detail.
So, to give you some ideas of what I'll be moaning and groaning about...
I am on my 5th day of no smoking. I have been a smoker since the age of 18. So that is 8 years, and wow they have gone by fast. I've quit and started and quit and started, just like every smoker out there. You know it is horrible for you, but you do it anyways. You wish you would have never started, but it is too late. Well, it is NOT too late for me. I'm done, put a fork in me!
Also, I am dieting and starting to exercise more. Ex-smokers tend to gain about 10 lbs when they quit smoking, I would prefer to not. So, I am going to mostly watch my calories and stick to exercising at least 4 times a week, moderate to vigorous 30 minutes - 1 hour.
So, I'm going to be a complete bitch to say the least :)
Sorry to all my friends who are going to have to come in contact with me during the next 8 weeks or however long it may take.
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