Microwave Oven

Last night my sister decided to cook. We had one of those "express" meals that cook in 16 minutes.

I got home and my sister said, "this damn thing takes 65 minutes, not 16"

I took the box, read the directions and said, "no, it says here if you put it in the microwave oven, it cooks in 16 minutes"

My sister said, "but we don't have one of those"

She will soon be graduating from Mary Washington! I guess they don't teach common sense.

I'm so frustrated

Seriously, I'm so frustrated. Due to procrastination (and my sister not getting her fucking shit together) "excuse my language".. I'm left to find a place to live last minute.

My sister is driving me fucking nuts! She thinks she has to live in some sort of pent house.. or some GIGANTIC house downtown, not understanding the price of dollar bills these days.

I make good money and I'm willing to spend more, but not a lot more on the cost of living. Right now, our apartment is 1050 dollars a month. It is small and cramped and has the shittiest carpet in the world.

Originally, I was going to buy a house. Well, that wild hair has been plucked because all of the houses are shitty. I don't mean a little shitty, I mean the house will have to be gutted and redone shitty. The 1 townhouse I found in average condition already had an offer that had been accepted.

So, I told my sister.. time to look around and find a place to rent. Well, she thinks she doesn't have time (although, she has class and works 2 nights a week). I work in DC and I'm gone all day long. I'm gone the entire time a normal office building is closed. She has no idea what NO time means.

You know what I'd like to do, I'd like to take the money I have to buy a house and go on a fucking cruise. I want to take an entire week and leave this hell hole.. just get me somewhere where it is warm and beachy. Please get me away from this smogged up city! Where no one smiles, everyones in a hurry and I have short legs. Please get me away from ringing telephones, constant emails from annoying mother fuckers who want me to do their work (which i do, because thats just how I am).

I figure if we stay in the apartment 1 more year (or possibly stay in the apartment complex and just move to a larger apartment), that we can take that money I have and spend it on a luxurious vacation... because you know what, soon I'll be married and having kids and I won't have this luxury anymore.. the ability to go on a week long cruise where i can just lay in the sun and soak up the peace and quiet.

So, right now.. I've given my sister an ultimatum. I told her she had a week 1/2 to find us a place to live or we're staying in the apartment. She hates the apartment (because she got a fucking queen sized bed with oversized furniture and she is 23 and doesnt realize she is only 23)..

so then, she decides she wants to live downtown. Doesn't she realize that the places downtown are EVEN SMALLER than the place we are in?

What do I do? I am about to give up and go drink and become homeless and live under a bridge with my dog.. and the worries of the day are actual worries.. where are you going to sleep and how are you going to eat!

I am dying to get out. What can I do?

Tid Bits

There is not going to be a baby. Dave and I talked.. he's scared of marriage and I'm scared of babies, so we are chillaxing on all that for a while.

But, I know what I do want to talk about. It's about 5:11 pm and I finally have some time to relax. I leave work at 6.

I've been working at the Pentagon for about 7 months. Just today, as I was walking the hallways, I realized that I am now "senior" in the building. I know the ins and outs and do's and DO NOT's of the building.

10 things I notice about the Pentagon...

1. Normally you base lunch on location, not on taste. Mcdonalds just happens to be the closests to my office. If I am in a hurry, that is the only place I can get to within 5 minutes.
2. Don't go to work with diarrhea. Luckily, I haven't learned this from experience. The bathrooms are just way too far away.
3. Also, every woman's bathroom has a nursing station. (it's an entire different room, located within the bathroom. I'm so tempted to go in there, but it would be the time someone has the pumps going.
4. I can look at the women in the Pentagon and tell who is new and who is seasoned, just based on their shoes. High heels for the newbies and flats for the seniors.
5. Being a woman in the Pentagon is like being back in the 50's. Every officer / military personnel that passes gives you the "ma'am" and a smile and hand gesture as you walk by.
6. Number 5 normally happens when your wearing a skirt. "shocker, right"
7. There is constantly a cock fight going on. By cock I mean, Military fight going on. The Navy is better than the Airforce because the Airforce just flies over and doesn't land. You know, those kind of things. Luckily, I was never in the military. I just fight to keep my civlianship (is that a word? if not, I made it up myself).
8. These people work from 7 in the morning to 11 at night, and yet somehow still have kids? I haven't figured that out yet!
9. Everyone runs everywhere. No matter what, there is a bus, metro, train, plane, escalator or something to catch. You see more running than you do walking. Myself included, I have ran to the metro several times. You know better than to miss that last train.
10. DC sucks

I am so confused

I really hope my boyfriend doesn't read my blog. If he does, I'm sorry.. but I just have to get this off my chest.

So, I confronted him today about the baby situation. How, even though I want a baby, I don't think it is a good idea. I would like to spend more time getting to know him. I mean, literally I didn't know he wanted a baby, which means i know nothing about him. He and I haven't spent more than 2 days at a time together. If we were "individually" thinking about this, sure a child would be cool. However, as a "couple", I don't think it is a great idea. He and I just don't know enough about each other, we've never lived together and technically haven't lived in the same city much. I told him how I wanted to get to know each other better and how I wanted to get engaged, get married and plan a family.

You know what he said to me, That love, engagement, marriage.. it's all fairytale.

Well, you know what.. Thats my fucking fairytale

Alright so..........

I still haven't decided what I want to do.. but I have to get my point in view.

Just because a man offers you a ring, doesn't mean he offers you his love and devotion. It doesn't mean that it is going to work out. I think telling someone you want to have children with them is a HUGE step. It's almost the same as saying, let's get married. In reality "most" people get married in order to start a family. Marriage is religious based and I'm not religious. I mean, really the only reason I'd want to get married is so that I could have a cool wedding and so the fucker couldn't walk away empty handed from his responsibility. BUT, having a child would be his responsibility too. It's not as if he could just decide he didn't want to be a dad anymore. I'd take his money!
I just know that I want to be a mom. I'll be 28 in less than 30 days and I'm starting to feel like I'm running out of time. And I'm sorry MOM's.. theres no commenting on that because you don't know how it feels.
Cindy.. you either. just because I said so. LOL

I just don't understand how a marriage can immediately make you ready for children? So, if Dave and I went to the JOP and signed a piece of paper.. I'd be parent ready?

Would you?

Your almost 28, you want a family and your boyfriend confesses he wants you to have his baby. Would you do it?
Even if you live in different cities?

Best Friends

I'm thankful I have all of you :) I just had a bad day yesterday.. a real bad day. I've had a ton on my mind, a new job position at work with A LOT of responsibilities and then I have moving and my boyfriend and just too many things running through my mind.

I relaxed last night and I thought about a lot of things. I've decided I'm going with the flow. I'm going to let life take me where it takes me. Again, sounds so weak.. but I'm tired of being responsibile. Of course, I'm going to pay my bills and I'm going to be an adult still.. but I'm not going to worry about all the small details of my life. I'm tired of worrying.

Also, I'm going to make an attempt to see a Dr. soon and try to get on some anxiety meds.

Lynchburg

What's the big deal if I did move? It would not change my relationship with any of my friends the slightest. I do not see any friend during the week anyhow. I see everyone I know every other weekend.
If I wanted to give it all up and go chase love.. (God that is gay) .. why should i not? Is it practical.. absolutely not.
BUT, what if this was my 1 shot at having a husband and a family? I want kids. sure, I play the role of the independent, working girl. I don't want that for the rest of my life. I want someone to share my life with.. a partner.

Im not moving to lynchburg next week. Dave and I haven't even truthfully talked about it.. but within the year.. this decision may come up and i just don't want to be stuck somewhere.

As for buying a house.. I am not ready to face it.. emotionally, financially or physically. I don't know if I want to be permanent somewhere.

I'm having a melt down because I'm a psychotic mess. I'm going to call a Dr. and tell him to prescribe me some pills to make me rational and unemotional.

I almost cried at work. I wanted to cry last night. I will probably cry tonight.

I almost feel dumb even talking about it

I'm not, I'm just not

buying a house. I was fairytaling my way around. Is fairytaling a word and if it is, did I spell it right?
Anyhow, last night i went to put an offer on a townhouse. Come to find out, at 9:30 when I finally got home... that a previous offer had already been accepted. (no one could have told me that before I made the trip to Montclair AFTER a long ass day of work to go sign 10 pieces of paper, write a check and sit and gossip with an old man that never shuts up). Seriously, I'm not disappointed that the townhouse isn't available. I'm pissed I wasted my entire evening.
I took it as a sign. I've looked high and low and the only thing in my price range are foreclosures. They are all nasty, disgusting, filthy, feet prints on the wall, hanging off a cliff pieces of shit. Unless I have 5,000 dollars.. I'm going ot have to live in a shit hole. Dreams only are reality when the reality involves a husband and a wife, or a single person who is good with money or has filthy rich parents. I'm neither. I suck with money, I'm tired and i just want to go shopping and be immature.
I have no interest in new carpet, new paint, a beautiful yard for me to mow. I'm burnt out and I'm tired of sitting with a real estate agent, I'm tired of worrying about money. Shit, I'm tired of being an adult.
I've been more stressed the past 2 weeks than I think I've ever been in my life. I got a new position at my job, well.. more responsibilities without extra pay. WTF.

Also, here is my other area of concern. Should I be concerned, I don't know. Dave and I have been dating for almost a year 1/2. I love him.. I would marry him if he asked me today. We've been keeping up with our Long Distance relationship for 6 months. He refuses to move back to Fredericksburg. He loves his career and he is really starting to like Lynchburg. That area is a different pace. Slower, calmer and it is sure as hell not DC. He and I have been "sort of" discussing stuff. Like, what will happen to our relationship and what not. i told him if he got me a ring and wanted to seriously get married, I would move to Lynchburg. I'm not that desperately in love with my career. i'd give it up for love and a family at the drop of a dime. Granted, I feel as if I'm setting myself up for failure. Maybe opening up too much because I'm really worried about being dumped. (it happened once, it can happen again right).. but I have to be open to this. I don't know what he wants because he's not a man of words. He says.. "Lynchburg has houses for 100,000". He is secretly nudging me.

I'm so confused. For now.. I'm going to find a house to rent and go buy me some new clothes. That's what I'm going to do.

Cliff Hanger

Is what I'm going to nickname the house I saw on Saturday. The house was amazing. Would have been perfect size, nice bathrooms, everything... HOWEVER.. This house was literally on the side of a mountain. The house also had no deck. I opened up the kitchen door and feared for my life. The back and side of the house was literally, hanging on the mountain side. I'd have to be hooked up to bungee cords in order to mow the grass.


HOWEVER, I found a beautiful 4 bedroom 3 1/2 bath townhouse in Heather Hills that I will be putting an offer on tonight. The townhouse already has an offer on it, but I believe my offer of 145,000 will be higher and hopefully I will out bid them and get the townhouse.

I'm so excited

I think I might be getting my hopes up.

I found a house that is perfect. (from the outside and the virtual tour on Fredericksburg.com).
It's small - 1080 sq ft. in Hickory Ridge (right by Leeland train station, by my moms house and about 3 miles from the Stafford Airport 95 entrance)
It has Cathedral ceilings in the kitchen/dining room. 3 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms. A basement that is unfinishd (but overtime can be finished by me myself and my handyman).
If I've estimated my money amounts correctly, I should spend about 1500 towards fees and closing costs (if the closing costs are covered, and my loan is a FHA loan and will cover some). About 300 dollars towards an inspection - if the home allows. It is a foreclosure home, so an inspection could be pointless, but I refuse to move in without one.
About 1000 dollars to recarpet what will need recarpeting. If it is a foreclosure home, that will mean the entire home.
About 200-300 dollars to repaint - Which I'm going to Con Tim (Roxanna's husband) into painting. I'll feed him or something. What I really need is a husband, PSHT.. that AIN'T happening.. EVER.
Anyways.. I will then have about 500 dollars leftover. Which, I will save that money because who knows what it will be needed for. Probably getting water and trash service to the house. I already have cable and electric so that should just be moved (which I'm sure it cost some sort of fee to do that) and I dont have a home phone.
So, what do you think?
Oh, also.. how much does it cost to put a fence around your house? (lets say.. .5 acre)? I want a fence for Charlie. It really is the only disappointment of the home

Does anyone read these?

Does anyone read my blog?

What the Fuck

I just did not expect it

Movies Galore

Friday night I watched this with my sister. I almost peed my pants. I watched most of the movie from behind my sisters arm and I was scared to look out any windows. SCARY AS SHIT!!



I cried. A LOT! I will not watch this ever again.


This was a horrible movie. It was slow, boring and didn't make any sense for most of the movie. It has a very disappointing ending I thought.



Also, I have found a house I think I'm going to love. It needs new carpet. Anyone know an average cost of recarpeting a 1400 Sq ft house?

ER

I can't say is went out with a bang. BUT, I did cry my eyeballs out. If you watched it, you know the parts.

Update

It's been a while since I've written anything. I've been checking and commenting everyone else's blogs but I haven't really wanted to write in mine.

I'm going to do the list.. just like Roxanna and Erin. I'm a poser, what can I say..


My list will be 6 things I'd like to do before the end of the 2009

1) Move - whether that is buying a house or renting a house
2) Lose 15 lbs.
3) Grow a miniature garden on my balcony or in my new yard
4) Be able to run a mile without stopping
5) Wear more dresses because they are pretty
6) Buy a new bedroom set

Boring, but hey.. its mine